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night-heart Ā· 11 months ago
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If Luna and Celestia were status reversals in the last post, then Wormcocoon and Rhyme are reversals of fortune
Crystal Cocoon is the long-serving, iron-fisted ruler of the Crystal Empire. He has a strong uneasiness about the borders of the country, and is a dull and uninteresting person who is obsessed with consolidating his power and has an overprotective and controlling attitude towards his subjects. But it is also because of the high alertness and training that he has repeatedly repelled the invasion of the Black Crystal King so that he has never succeeded.
Later, after the emergence of the Phantom Spirit race on the continent, they were pressured to form an alliance with Luna's horse country. The Phantom Spirits' method of invasion is very different from that of the Black Crystal King, and the Crystal Cocoon is almost powerless to do anything about it, becoming sensitive, thin, and neurotic from the days and nights of personal labor.
Demon Law, on the other hand, is the queen of the Illusory Spirit Clan. They are born with the ability to bewitch people, disguising themselves as glamorous and making intimate relationships with others, gradually sucking their emotional energy and turning it into their own life force.
Demon Ruler tries to cover up her broken body to fill her empty heart with the love of others day in and day out. She specializes in playing male horses into her hands, and one of the young up-and-coming archmages of the Crystal Empire's royal family, Silver Glimmer (Silver Armor), is one of them
Phantom Spirits' bodies are the same pink color as Demon Law, and even if they haven't experienced the burns of the original their bodies are still riddled with holes, and the emptiness that comes from their hearts becomes their own most feared form. Disgusted with the ugly body constantly transformed into a more shiny skin to cover their own uneasiness
Crystal Cocoon hates Demon Rhythm, and like the original Sky Ray is trolled by others for aging. Rhyme treats her people with gentleness, letting them go wherever they want to draw love back into their nests to feed themselves
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loversfms Ā· 3 months ago
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[ ā€¦ ] ā€ youā€™re not from around here , are you ? i figured because you totally just missed winona morris walking by. donā€™t tell me you donā€™t know who she is ? they kind of look like fivel stewart and i could be wrong but i think that they might be twenty-eight years old right now. theyā€™ve been living in palmview for the last two years. and i donā€™t know if anyone has ever told them this before but they kind of remind me of beth march from little women. if you stick around the town long enough you might catch them in action working at fleurist as the owner / florist. you see this town isnā€™t really that big of a place, some folks like to call them the green thumb of palmview! they took a liking to the name too after a while, go figure. oh crap, they must have heard me yapping. theyā€™re coming this way. i got to warn you though, rumor has it they can pretty worrisome at times. i wouldnā€™t take it too seriously though, from the times iā€™ve spoken to them they seemed pretty disciplined to me. we see each other all the time since they live in that one bedroom apartment beside me over in seaglass heights. i better leave you to it. it was nice meeting you !
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full name :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā winona quinn morris nickname(s) :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā winnie birthplace :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā san diego, california date of birth :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā 02 / 28 / 1996 parentage :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā unknown sibling(s) :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā ____ morris relationship status :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā single gender identity :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā cis woman ( she/her ) sexual orientation :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā lesbian bisexual faceclaim :Ā Ā  Ā  Ā Ā fivel stewart
BACKGROUND: ( tw: mentions of neglect, homophobia, anxiety, and depression )
winnie isnā€™t very sure of her lineage. she knows she was adopted at the age of two, but she has no prior knowledge of her bio family. her adoption was a closed one, and it seemed to be how both parties preferred it.
adopted by jonathan and susanne morris, two prominent lawyers in their area. they had plenty of money and room to share. however, what they had in material items, they lacked in love.
winnie loved her parents fiercely as a young child. she didnā€™t understand that she and her brother were simply trophies for her family to show off to the public. her and her brother werenā€™t their children who they loved and adored, they were proof to the public of their generosity and their good-nature.
growing up, winnie spent most of her time with different nannies. she longed to spend time with her parents, and the nannies sheā€™d had were kind enough to keep their opinions on her parents to themselves. they would always assist her in drawing pictures for her mom and dad (that were always met with mild enthusiasm).
it was hard to be a kid in the morris home. expectations were always very strict. any big emotions were met with anger and annoyance rather than love and care. she learned to bottle things up at a very young age. it was just easier. still, it was very difficult for her. she has always been very sensitive, and all sheā€™s ever wanted is to please her parents.
one of her favorite things to do with her nannies was to just be outside. whether it was going for walks or playing at the park, winnie loved every minute of it. she loved seeing the bugs, the animals, and the plants. one thing she always adored were flowers.
she would always want to pick flowers for her mom. her small little bouquets always got her a ā€œhow sweetā€ and a head pat, and winnie would be on cloud nine for hours.
with her love for nature, itā€™s no surprise that biology and science quickly became her favorite subject. she loved the butterfly unit and watching caterpillars build their cocoons and eventually hatch.
she has always been a bit of a bookworm, and that made it all the easier to be shy. she could easily hide behind her books and not have to talk to other kids. which was for the best, anyway. her parents were very particular about who she could be friends with, so it was best for her to not try to make her own.
which, came as a bit of a blessing as she grew through puberty. all the sleepovers she was forced to attend were good practice for how to talk about boys. learning which ones were considered cute, discovering how you'd want one to treat you... it was just stuff winnie had never thought about. what was there to notice about boys when girls were simply... prettier to look at ?
but, she rationalized her thoughts by saying she was simply appreciative of those around her. how could the trophy daughter of conservative lawyers have feelings for other girls ?
and, once again, it's easier for winnie to be alone. your eyes can't linger too long if there's no one there to look at
however, everything changes when she goes to college and meets veronica lee. they met during orientation, and somehow, winnie just knew she was safe around the other.
their relationship only grew as time went on. they'd connected on multiple levels-- growing up with wealth, but not fitting the role your family wants you to play. it didn't take long for the two of them to become attached at the hip, never seeing one without the other.
until one night, the two came stumbling back to ronnie's dorm after a party ( something only ronnie could convince winnie to go to ). they'd had plenty of sleepovers, had probably shared a bed about a hundred times at this point. but, something within winnie just snapped. she'd lost all her inhibitions and couldn't think outside of that room. not of her role, not of her parents, not of their expectations. it was just winnie and ronnie.
the kiss had changed everything. winnie hadn't expected to feel as much as she did, and she wasn't expecting ronnie to be the one to pull away. that gesture was one that brought reality crashing down. it wasn't right-- this wasn't who winona morris was.
after that, winnie had done all she could to avoid ronnie and her own feelings. she couldn't get in an argument with her parents at the age of twenty. she knew she'd lose. she had nothing to fall back on.
losing ronnie was hard, and winnie soon became a shell of who she was with veronica. empty, hollow, lifeless. she knew college was for experiences, and she had been excited for them. now, she just wanted to do as little as possible and ensure she left with a degree.
and that she did. with a business degree ( something that had disappointed her parents greatly, but even they knew she'd be a terrible lawyer ) in hand, winnie knew exactly what she wanted to do with her life. but first, she wanted to get some practice in. she worked as a florist at a few different shops up until she was twenty-five.
everything kind of happened at twenty-five. she'd hit an emotional wall. she was exhausted hiding the person she was, even from herself. she'd been smart enough to work and save her money as she did, because she pretty much went off the grid for three months. she was constantly crying, having anxiety attacks, and she could barely get out of bed. she hated herself and she just wanted to be free.
she's twenty-five when she comes out to her family. as bisexual, because it's easier to stomach and possibly more acceptable. her brother welcomes her with open arms, her parents, not so much. they can't cut her off entirely, seeing as she's still one of their trophies. she appears in family christmas photos, but their communication pretty much ceases to exist. no more financial help, and no more love ( not that there was much to begin with ).
moving to palmview was a fresh start. she'd shed her old self and was ready to welcome the new winona. WINNIE. a name her parents had refused to call her.
she settles herself down, still has some money saved ( and has some help from her brother ) and works to open fleurist. after a year of buying, meeting, planning, and decorating, winnie was pleased to finally be able top open up her own flower shop and to work as a florist.
everything was finally on her terms, and she couldn't have felt more alive.
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uhhhh honestly like .... real friends. people who know winnie and love her <3
failed dates lolllllll my girl has been ever so slowly trying to get out there but .... life is hard. this can be men and women because she's definitely a lesbian but hasn't figured that out yet
loyal customers <3 please and thank uuuuuuu
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ssplague Ā· 11 months ago
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I noticed a fair amount of attention on my ā€œWolf Man Bakugouā€ post, so here ya go šŸ˜‰ If it seems to read a bit WEIRD, this particular story was originally planned to be a long thirst/ possible drabble, but as I mentioned in my previous post I have this Chronic turn a Short Story into a series disorder šŸ˜·šŸ¤’ This is more than likely going to end up being a ridiculously long one shot, or possibly two part deal.
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Waking up, a cocoon of unusual warmth surrounds you; A heavy arm lays across your waist, deep breaths blow against your scalp, someoneā€™s body is spooning you from behind. Thinking the worst, you stay silent, abruptly attempting to scramble forward and far away from this stranger. Unfortunately a loud yelp echoed throughout the cavern as you trip over a chain that connects to what has to be a collar around your neck. You immediately start hyperventilating, Where am I?! Who took me from the cabin?! ā€œFinally up? About damn timeā€ The deep raspy voice comes from beneath the blanket you had thrown off. A shirtless man sits up, his messy ash blonde hair sticks up in all directions, but you can just barely make out two large ears of the same color hidden beneath it. ā€œWho are you? Where am I? Let me go!ā€ You snap at him, yanking hard on the chain, eyes following the length of it when it doesnā€™t give a single inch. A heavy stone spike is nailed through the chain links, keeping it (& you) pinned to the stone floor.
ā€œIā€™m Katsuki, future leader of the Bakugou Clan and a direct descendant of the very first werewolfā€¦This is my new den, and I brought you here to claim you as my ownā€ he puffs out his chest ā€œIā€™ve watched you every day for almost a month, and have decided you will become my mate, welcome home pretty humanā€.
ā€œNo this isnā€™t right, that canā€™t beā€¦I was finally happy with my life in the villageā€¦I want to go back, please let me go backā€ you began to sob working yourself into hysterics ā€œI was finally free!ā€. ā€œYouā€™re safe here with me, Iā€™ll always protect you, youā€™ll want for nothing I promise youā€¦ā€ Katsuki offers, immediately bristling when he gets no response. You just continue crying into your hands, shivering as you realize the clothes you had on the night before were gone. You sat on the cold stone floor in only your under garments. A familar numbness spreads throughout your body at the realization that not only has your newly acquired freedom been snatched away, but you were going to be subjected to the will of someone new, and any minute now youā€™ll be violatedā€¦itā€™s happening again. You feel your body being lifted, and carried back to where you had woke up, ā€œGet back in the nest before you catch cold, I donā€™t want you leaving this spot until I say soā€ the Wolfman growls as he goes back to spooning you, ā€œLetā€™s rest, weā€™re both going to need it for the days aheadā€. You feel his hand push your hair back to expose your neck, then he begins rubbing his wrist across the sensitive skin. The deep inhale he takes upon burying his face in your hair sends a chill down your spine.
A/N: I know itā€™s short, but I donā€™t want to give away too much of the story. Iā€™ll be sharing a third snippet of another W.I.P later! What did you think?
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dulcisregnumdorm Ā· 7 months ago
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Terrence Von Schweetz
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Name: Terrence Von Schweetz
Age: 22
Gender: Transmasc
Sexuality: Gay
Pronouns: He/Him
Year: 3
Best Subject: History
Birthday: May 23rd
Twisted From: Taffyta Muttonfudge
Class: D (No 15)
Club: Equestrian
Height: 6ā€™0
Hobby: Ice Skating,Racing,playing the guitar
Homeland:Glace Duchy
Likes: Flying Dislikes: Politics,his mother,his father,pageant shows
Unique Magic: Dulce Metamorphose (can turn any living being into candy)
VA:Kenji Nojima
Nicknames:crybaby,prince
Pet Peeves: His fangirls
Favorite Food: Strawberries
Least Favorite Food:Bugs
Talent(s): Modeling,playing the guitar
Zodiac:Gemini
Personality type: ESTJ-T (Executive)
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Personality: Terrence is a young man that on paper (and around the important people he would have to kiss up to) would be defined as ā€œprince-likeā€. With a repertoire of natural skills the upper class would consider common Terrence fits the standard any person of wealth would want their child to mold.Ā 
Or would if it wasnā€™t for Terrenceā€™s general bratty attitude towards his ā€œfansā€ and actual sensitive nature. These personaā€™s act as shields in order to get by just existing in Twisted wonderland,not only as the first child of the Duke of the Glace Duchy but also as a person dehumanized by people who were supposed to protect him from harm.
Fun Facts:
Whenever he is bored Terrence would use one of his alt magicam accounts to troll his fangirls, this has carried on for 2 years.
Normally the ringleader in the dorm when someone outside of the dorm needs a good beatdown
Ā Whenever he has the chance terrence goes ice skating to clear his mind
Can actually drive very well, if he wanted he could give Temperence a good challenge
How does Terrence have two different lengths of hair? Magic
Despite his prince-like demenour Terrence gets the most feral when pissed
^fangs and mandibles out, Vincent having to hold him back
Likes the cybercore angel aesthetic
^every now and then he will dress up in that aesthetic
Terrence is known for coming up with the most creative insults known to man
Is known to be the one to cry most of the time in the group
^But because of this Terrence is the most mentally stable
Has played DnD one assuming it was going to be useless
^After that one game Terrence has now hosted 2 campaigns as a dungeon master
Is terrified of Vargas because one time in his first year Vargas flung Terrence into the air to get him to fly
Terrence is known for leaving cotton candy webbing in the rafters (they were attempts are making a cocoon)
Has the sharpest claws
Used to be childhood friends with Leona
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dom-thebartender Ā· 3 months ago
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Biography
Dominik (Dom) DeMarc
Age: 28
Occupation: Bartender
Species: WereFox (Omega)
Dominik DeMarc, known as Dom, began his life in an environment of warmth and stability. Growing up in a picturesque town with his devoted parents, Domā€™s childhood was filled with joy, adventure, and a deep sense of security. The DeMarcs were a close-knit family, and young Dom thrived under their loving care, cocooned in affection and protection.
This idyllic existence was abruptly shattered when Dom was just seven years old. A tragic accident claimed the lives of his parents, leaving him orphaned and profoundly affected. As an omega werefox, Dom was particularly sensitive to emotional distress, and the sudden loss of his family was a devastating blow. Placed into the foster system, he faced not only instability but also physical and emotional abuse. The neglect and mistreatment deepened his feelings of abandonment and isolation, leaving him with enduring scars.
Throughout his formative years, Dom felt compelled to hide his identity as a werefox. In a world where werecreatures often faced suspicion and prejudice, he feared that revealing his true nature would only exacerbate his difficulties. This secrecy added an additional layer of isolation and self-protection, as he struggled to navigate his complex identity while grappling with his traumatic experiences.
By his late teens, Dom sought to escape his relentless pain through drugs and alcohol. His addiction worsened, leading him into a cycle of homelessness and the harsh realities of street life. During this period, he was frequently subjected to disdain and cruelty, both from those who ignored him and those who exploited him. This harsh treatment reinforced his sense of mistrust and betrayal.
Determined to turn his life around, Dom entered a recovery program, marking a significant turning point in his journey. The path to recovery was challenging, involving extensive counseling, support groups, and intense personal effort. Domā€™s resilience and inner strength guided him through this difficult period, helping him regain stability and self-worth.
Seeking a fresh start and a place where he could be accepted, Dom moved to New Haven, a city known for its vibrant community of werecreatures. This new beginning offered him the chance to leave behind painful memories and find a supportive environment where he could rebuild his life. Now 28, Dom works as a bartender in a popular New Haven bar. His sassy, bratty demeanor serves as a protective faƧade, a defense mechanism developed to shield his more vulnerable self. His sharp wit and playful banter help him maintain a barrier against further emotional harm.
Dom's experiences have left him with a deep-seated mistrust of the world outside of New Haven. The harsh treatment he received in foster care and while homeless has fostered a general disdain for humanity, fueling his preference for the accepting and understanding community of werecreatures in New Haven. Although he remains guarded, his difficult past has also given him a profound empathy for others who struggle. He often extends support and understanding to patrons facing their own challenges, reflecting his resilience and capacity for compassion.
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denimbex1986 Ā· 10 months ago
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'Alone in his apartment, Adam (terrific Andrew Scott, seen in the series Fleabag ) tries to write a new script, but he seems lost in his thoughts. Returning to the neighborhood of his childhood, in the suburbs of London, he is assailed by images and memories. Inside his family home, he sees the silhouettes of his parents, too happy to see him again. Their interior and clothing seem frozen in the 1980s.
In the evening, a stranger knocks on Adam's door. Harry (Paul Mescal, revealed in the magnificent series Normal People and rediscovered in the film Aftersun ) is the only other inhabitant of this building in central London. He would like to invite him for a drink, but his too direct approach displeases Adam.
Throughout his trips back and forth to his childhood home, Adam shares his memories and impressions with his parents (magnificent Claire Foy, seen in the series The Crown , and Jamie Bell, from Billy Elliot ) who are now the same age than him. In front of them, Adam seems to have remained the 12 year old kid they always knew. But for him, these conversations are an opportunity to tell them everything he was unable to share with them. To tell them who he is and what he has become. These trio conversations, seemingly perfectly ordinary, result in appeasement and a form of tranquility for this solitary adult.
Passionate about romantic relationships, Andrew Haigh ( 45 years old ) films with great delicacy the signs of love and family tenderness, creating a tangible and soft cocoon for these trio conversations. At the same time, the beginnings of a queer romance are taking shape that could turn Adam's life upside down.
To weave this story, the British filmmaker was inspired by his own experiences, very freely adapting the novel Presences of a Summer (1987) by the Japanese author Taichi Yamada, who died in 2003 . He magnifies his subject through an aerial and padded photograph where superimposed faces and numerous childhood images float, illuminated by the tenderness and warmth of memories.
Quest for memories and sensations
At the same time, he films the way in which the two ā€œneighborsā€ manage to break the ice. Offering the very beautiful impressions of a budding relationship, with the embarrassment and awkwardness that accompany it, and a soundtrack that carries many memories of the 80s and 90s.
In small touches, with great economy of means, but also infinite sensitivity, the filmmaker, who worked for a long time alongside Ridley Scott, composes a double story of love and consolation, a story of mourning and melancholy too. His quest for memories and vanished sensations raises the question of Adam's place among the living.
ā˜…ā˜…ā˜…ā€‡ '
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corvidamned Ā· 1 year ago
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Ho ho ho! I'm so terribly sorry for being late these last few days, I've had my hands rather tied. Now, where were we? I come with many presents. NAUGHTY -> Is there someone that Kira utterly loathes? Would love for nothing more than to do away with that person? If the opportunity was presented, to erase someone within the Fog from that plane of existence, would he?
NICE -> When did she first become aware of the blood web? What is her favorite thing that she loves to find within the Entity's random catalog?
NAUGHTY -> Do they believe that there's a way out of this mess? That there is a possibility to escape from the Entity's clutches? If there was, would she take it, leaving everything and everyone behind for freedom?
As always, meeeeeeerry Christmas! Your SECRET secret Santa :)
First Question is going to be under the cut for the non-graphic but still sensitive subject matter. Two! First sleep following Trial One. The wiki describes it as a nexus that prevents dreamless sleep. In my headcanon, there is an actual giant web constructed in a cave or between very old trees. Every item is a cocoon in reach. And if you take something, you always cut yourself on branches or debris that remain in the shell of the cocoon, staining the webs red. It hardly matters how injured you get in this nexus, as long as you can pay the equal price for what the item is worth. When Kira wakes, she'd be the amount of injured or uninjured she was at the end of the previous trial, and her body would be whole again once she starts fresh for the next trial. As she becomes a more experienced survivor, the gathering of items process comes to her when she's awake, appearing to her as found items she can forage for in the forest, and items in the vending machine in RPD she can press a button for.
Items Kira is most interested in are Medkits of any kind. Add-ons most particularly coveted would be the anti-haemorrhagic syringe, stypic agent, abdominal dressing, gauze roll, needle & thread, medical scissors, bandages, and butterfly tape. When miraculously not available, the brand new part for Toolboxes, the black silk cord for Maps, the blood amber and the unique wedding ring for the Key are very much appreciated. Kira hoards Flashlights, rarely ever ever using them. Offerings that she snags immediately and uses often are Bog Laurels, Shiny Coins, and Tarnished Coins. Three! At heart, she always has that spark of hope she will leave this place. It would take a lot of being beaten down to no longer believe. The harsh words of a jaded friend or lover, followed by a long absence that induces a spiral into becoming obsessive and malformed. The betrayal of other survivors, if her reputation as a vampire consumes the masses to treat her as contagious or like a ticking time bomb, bound to start killing. Kira's resolve under normal circumstances, the bloodiest and most hopeless of trials, is usually steel to the end, whether it is a flawless escape or a horrifying mori.
Kira keeps this very close to her chest, but she would jump through a portal or let a merciful fog consume her even if it only takes one. She would hope someone dear to her would be able to follow, or use her notes and clues left behind to which tomes one ought to look for to be able to follow. But come daylight, under these hellish circumstances, Kira is of the mindset she should put her oxygen mask on first before helping others. Even if that means the possibility of never seeing the people she's met again. It's why I have this au arc. no exit where someone she knows is so pissed off, they make a pact to see that she comes back and is stuck here with the rest of them
I think Kira is in the majority with most people wanting the dream demon, the Nightmare, to not be a part of the roster. It's not the dreamscape. It's a challenge as difficult as facing the Pig. It's his origin, that one can easily deduce with the presence of an elementary school in Springwood, that's repulsive. He wasn't a indiscriminate killer, or a soldier that committed war crimes on behalf of a government or private corporation, or child himself. He was a older man who took advantage of his position as groundskeeper and abused children, marked them, and killed them. And those that got away until teenager years or adulthood were slowly hunted down until there were nearly none left and the myth had to be retold by future generations in order for his spirit to have form and influence.
I'm a fan of the Freddy films, and I can consume fucked up content in healthy amounts. My fictional character has fictional standards of who should live or die an ugly death. Kira, who is a csa survivor, would personally want to stab Freddy thirty-six times in the face, and then pray the Entity would wipe her memory of the incident, and send him back to the real world, where he can possess actor R/obert En/glund into doing one more script to feed the ancient entity that constantly needs its story to be told in safe media like movies in order for it to be trapped forever.
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subpar-ghoulfriend Ā· 3 years ago
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Live In Nanny Pt 2
Villain!All Might x Reader
All Might raising baby Deku but is in desperate need of a nanny (Pt 2). The morning after and basically wayyyy to long so the smut is gonna have to be in pt 3. (word count: a little over 2k)
pt 1 here
TW: Yandere themes, day after dub con, reader is held against their will
You were sore. Your hips, wrists, back, pussy, everything ached. A silky sheet was the only thing covering your bare form. You could feel that you were alone in bed, Toshi's bulkiness was no longer weighing down the mattress. It must be mid morning because light was streaming through the curtains. Maybe if you remained still you could absorb into the mattress. Not only because of your tender body, but because you would prefer to never see your boss again. But speak of the devil. "Are we staying in bed all day?" You groaned. Hating how he worded his question. We. It was condescending, patronizing, and somehow filled you with butterflies. Something was placed on the bed, definitely not heavy enough to be Toshi. And then you realized, not something but a tiny someone. Baby Izuku crawled over to you, babbling, and tapped your sore shoulder. "Morning, Zuzu," You mumbled. Your joints crackled to life and you tightened the covers so you could face the little one. Behind him the clock read 11:00 am. "I need to get dressed." The villain cocked his head, "I tossed your clothes in the laundry do you want me to go get something from your closet?" No, you didn't want him running through your belongings. He would probably make a mess. "Just give me one of your shirts." That provided you enough modesty to get to your room and you were surprised the menace didn't follow. You scrubbed your body raw under the shower, subconsciously punishing yourself for taking pleasure from the night before. You were frustrated. Clean and covered in giant sweat pants and a hoodie you stormed into the living room where Toshi sat watching izuku entertain himself. "I quit." There was a pause. You tried not to look at the child. He would sway your resolve. This didn't have anything to do with him, it was between you and his father. "Alright." Oh. He wasn't going to challenge you? Figures, the man got what he wanted from you. You turned on your heels and rushed back to your room. You didn't own much so it wasn't hard to shove your belongings back into the suitcase. Opening your bedside drawer you froze. Your keys andĀ phone were missing. This was their spot. The dedicated key-and-phone drawer. You check the room once, twice, then Izuku's room, the playroom, the kitchen. "Where are my keys?" You hissed, to hell with the phone you could buy a replacement. "Why would you need those," His voice was taunting. You felt your fists ball up and your nails dug into your palms. You stomped your foot like a frustrated child. "Because I'm leaving, I quit, now give me my keys." "I agreed you can quit, if that's what makes you feel better. I didn't say anything about leaving." The tension could be cut with a knife. He wasn't speaking or moving, he was eerily looming. In the other room Izuku was getting fussy. It knotted your stomach not going to check on him, but you kept your eyes on the villain. Toshinori was the first one to move, he went to check on his son. Clearly you weren't a threat. You could do without the keys, even sacrifice your suitcase. You made it all the way to the front door where you expected him to be, but he wasn't. He was with Izuku. With a twist at the knob the door didn'tĀ budge. You tried once more before angrily shaking the door. All Might called for you, "I told you that you aren't leaving. It's a two way security system but feel free to keep trying." When did he install this? You didn't see anything obvious like a box or camera indicating a security system. You could've thrown a fit or tried to break open the window but you had a feeling you wouldn't make it far. "What are you getting at?" You asked, rejoining the father-son duo. "Nothing aside from what we discussed last night in bed," he was making your cheeks burn red. "Making sure we stay a happy family." By the tone of his voice you knew there was no room for discussion. He didn't chastise you for slamming the door your room. He didn't pester you through out the day. He didn't even open your door to tell you he made dinner. He came by later to tell you (through the door) that he left you a plate in case you get hungry. By midnight you were. You tip toed down the hall, peeking into to the nursery to see Izuku fast asleep. You scarfed down the food before crawling back to bed. --- The next day you shuffled out of bed and into Izuku's room where you picked up the quiet but awake baby. You were gentle as you combed through his green curls with your fingers. He was still warm the way babies gets when they sleep. Holding him soothed you. Toshi melted when he saw you two curled up on the couch. He didn't want to ruin the mood so he stayed out of your line of sight for a few more minutes. Finally he entered the threshold of the room, "I'm heading out for the day but I won't be out late." You could've ignored him, but Izuku's grubbing hands were grabbing for his daddy. You had been defeated by the toddler. You weren't a monster. You moved toward your now ex-employer so he could tell his son goodbye. Goodbye before he goes off to commit atrocities.Ā Toshi kissed the childā€™s chubby cheeks without removing him from your arms. He was too close for comfort. You took an awkward half step back before his huge hand caught your hair. With a tug, your chin jutted forward and he pressed his lips to yours. "Zuku, keep an eye on mommy," Chuckling as he stepped out the front door. Your mind was fuzzy for a moment before looked down at the boy on your hip who was giggling and clapping his hands together. --- The jovial villain was focused at work. He was on edge, quiet and irritable. Eager to return home and help you with his son. All Might wasn't delusional ā€” well at least not entirely. He anticipated that this would be a rough time for you, but you were a good girl, you would adjust.
When he placed that ad to scout for someone to watch Izuku he didn't plan for this. But you were so perfect. He ached for you in a way he never hurt before. Had you been anyone else he would've killed you when you found out his villainous ways. But no, he could never bring himself to harm you. God, you even took the news in stride. Yeah, you weren't thrilled and may have walked out of their lives if he hadn't stopped you; but you weren't trashing his house or treating Izuku any differently.
And you were so pretty underneath him, whimpering while you took his length, your nails digging into the man's shoulders when he released into you. You slept like a rock afterwards, rolling unconsciously into him. Your body sought his comfort, knowing you were safe with him. He just needed to give you time to adjust.
--- It didn't take long for you to stop leaving the room any time he entered. And soon you were back to your normal routine of caring for the child and keeping up with the house. You resumed playing around with Izuku and began reading a ton of books to the boy. You told Toshi that Izuku could even pick which books he wanted you to read. It was nice that you were talking to him again, sometimes making jabs at his life choicesĀ and always kept a distance between yourself and him. Izuku was becoming quite the talker, well the babbler because he hasn't said his first word yet. He was figuring it out though. He knew he could say 'Ap-ap' for apple or to get picked up. You were sure he would say his first word any day. --- The three of you were in the living room when it happened. Izuku was watching some baby show, the first "lesson" was colors and the little one did his best to make nonsensical noises. The next subject was family members. Siblings, sister, brother. Parents. Mom, mommy, mama. Dad, daddy, papa. Grandma, grandpa. Aunt, auntie. Uncle. Over and over again until the show was done. Toshi looked at the izuku who was wearing the face of a thinker. He looked at his dad, the little one was trying to get something of importance out. You both cheered for him once he finally got out the word "papa." It was cute to see the man beam with pride, even though he was a villain. The butterflies were breaking out of their cocoons again. --- Toshi didn't get much alone time with his son and he liked it that way. That meant you were with them. But when he did get time with son he worked on teaching the boy that you were the mommy. Mama. And Izuku would try to repeat but hadnā€™t quite got it. --- You were struggling to maintain your composure in between watching the news and cooking dinner. All Might was robbing a bank. There were hostages. You recognized the location immediately as a bank you passed almost daily before working for Toshinori. Did you know anyone inside? A small part of you worried for the man, probably because you were thinking of him as Izuku's father rather than a villain. You shut the TV off when you heard Izuku start to wake from his nap.
That night you couldn't help but notice a slice on his arm; it was superficial, not even bleeding but enough to draw out the question: Why do you do it? It's easy, he shrugged. All Might never initiated an attack unprovoked nor directed his actions towards helpless civilians. He stole, dabbled in the black market, and made sure everyone knew not to mess with him or anyone in his circle.
You just couldn't understand. When Zuku gets older he will ask questions. All little boys idolize their dads. What if someone tried to hurt the boy?Ā 
The two of you were whisper yelling with each other. You more so than Toshi but he was still running low on patience; it had been a long day, after all. Izuku was picking up on the changing atmosphere, watching you both through furrowed brows, the quiver in his lip worsening. You stopped when you heard the whimpering begin. He was a sensitive child. Maybe you just needed to sleep. Toshi picked up the baby, bouncing Zuku in the way that always prevented tantrums and wails. He kept babbling and you could tell he was doing his best not to cry. You started to head towards your room when a cry broke out for 'mama.' This time it wasn't Toshi ā€œputting you in your placeā€. This time it was Izuku.
"It's okay, Zuzu," Toshi soothed. "Mommy just needs a minute."
The crushing realization of just how trapped you were knocked the wind out of you. You couldn't leave the house. Toshi was always being too kind and patient. Somehow he managed to teach Izuku that you were his mommy. The most infamous villain had ensnared you and no matter what he wasnā€™t letting go. You would never be able to convince him to leave you alone and you'd never be able to leave Izuku.
You were tired of stubbornly holding out. Pathetic tears cascaded down your face, gentle and oddly relieving. Izuku practically leapt into your arms. The tot clung to you and his crying calmed down. you turned away, not able to look at the man.
"Are you going to think the worst of me forever?" Toshinori whispered. Maybe? Probably not. It was hard to tell. You didn't want to.
He continued, "I'm a good father, I would never let anyone hurt Izuku. Or you. Sure I don't have a lot of redeeming qualities but there are some."
You were tired of being stuck inside. It wasn't good for Izuku either. You wouldn't admit it but you weren't so sure you would abandon them even if given the chance. You were tired of trying to hate the man behind you. Tired of pretending you didn't fantasize about thatļæ½ļæ½night when you were alone in bed. Toshi moved right behind you and you relaxed against his huge chest. He was surprised and hesitant to move in case he frightened you to your senses. He couldn't just stand there though, that would be weird. Two thick arms wrapped around waist. "Tomorrow I wanna take Izuku to the park," You whispered. Toshi was equally defeated.
"Okay."
---
After putting Izuku to bed you made your way down the hall. The shower in Toshinori's bathroom was running. That was fine. You needed a moment to collect your thoughts. If this was going to work without you feeling like a hostage he was going to have to be open to loosing the reigns.Ā 
He was surprised to see you in his room when he exited the bathroom in nothing more than a pair of sweatpants.Ā 
"More fighting?" He cocked an eyebrow.Ā 
You shook your head, "I hate All Might, just as much as I hate every other villain. But when you come home I don't see All Might, I just see Toshinori, Izuku's dad. That's the man I care about and no matter how much I fight it I can't stop caring."
It was hard to keep eye contact with him but you continued, "I want to be with you and Izuku, not with All Might. And I want to be here on my own accord. I want to be able to go out with Izuku andĀ with you. Can't we just try that?"Ā 
You didn't come in here to berate him again? Or to demand to leave? His heart softened as he realized that the person he wanted, wanted him back. You were willing to remain in their lives.Ā 
"I can try that."Ā 
Toshi trained his eyes on your body, fighting every instinct to close the space between. But you moved first, gingerly placing your hand on his shoulder to steady yourself as you straddled his lap.
"Can I sleep in here tonight? I want you to hold me," You whispered.
He nodded and rested his forehead against the crook of your neck. "Is that all you want from me tonight?"
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i-did-not-mean-to Ā· 3 years ago
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Sorry if this is a bit too specific: legolas marries the readers on the request of his father and a lord. Reader thinks it's ok .. they can work it out, but decades pass and they have never been intimate and watches the lingering glances he has towards tauriel. But she keeps trying to get his attention, but when legolas decided to run after tauriel during the DOS she runs away leaving a letter and wedding ring behind. Legolas admits to Tauriel he loved her cause of everything she had done for him after BOTFA, but tauriel is absolutely confused saying that was never her. Legolas horrified coming to realise it was all the reader's doing, he tries deny it first but out of shock and thranduil almost shouts at him to open his eyes and see the truth. So when legolas returns and sees the letter and ring left behind, he sets out to find her again šŸ¤” and does he? Fluff ending? Up to you, because i marvel at how you write and bring a story to a close .. that is not heavy on the mind.
- Thank you and sorry for being very specific. Change it along if it easier for yourself. You are the writer and I'm your simple requester with an idea too big and a writing too rough and small šŸ¤Ŗ
Dear anon, this was indeed very specific...
So, to keep the suspense up, I'll do this in two parts :D
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Vows - Part I
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Warning: Marital problems, pain, hint at infidelity (emotional)
The news of your impending betrothal had come one sunny morning and ā€“ obedient to a fault ā€“ you didnā€™t even think it necessary to agree explicitly.
It was, after all, a great honour to be married to the prince of the woodland realm ā€“ a young Elf so charming and handsome that many a maiden would have killed to be in your shoes ā€“ according to the express wishes of both the king and your eminent father.
The fact that you did not know Legolas or had ever spoken to him beyond the courteous exchanges that were both usual and expected in your circles did not dissuade you from believing that everything would work out fine.
You were ā€“ in a word ā€“ full of a faith that bordered on naĆÆvetĆ©; while you had spent your youth in the protective cocoon of your parentsā€™ love, Legolas had been raised to be a warrior and a royal, but you were convinced that youā€™d find common ground eventually.
Your wedding was a very formal affair ā€“ much to your disappointment ā€“ and you silently bemoaned the impossibility to find a single quiet moment to get to know your betrothed a little better.
At all times, there was some kinsman, subject, or friend interrupting and pulling away your newly minted husband to drink with them or exchange news pertaining to subjects hardly meant for the sensitive ears of a porcelain court doll.
It hurt you to admit it, but you felt utterly and miserably lonely at your own wedding and still, you had faith in your marriage.
You had been born and bred to be a wife; you knew that you could be a good one and Legolas struck you as a gentle soul you could even grow to care for.
That night, and every night after though, he would refrain from joining you in your marital chamber. You knew not whence he left until ā€“ months later ā€“ you followed him discreetly and found out that he would sit in a tree until morning light.
No doubt, this was hardly restful!
The years crept by slowly; you grew used to that presence at your side that was so much like the sun and the moon: ever there and yet impossible to touch.
Your husband turned out to be mild and very kind; he would make pleasant conversation with you at banquets and formal dinners, but he never actively sought out your presence when you were alone ā€“ reading or watching the stars ā€“ in your private quarters.
Moreover, you were not blind to the lingering looks he would lavish on that red-haired Elven guard ā€“ Tauriel ā€“ and you couldnā€™t help the incessant, voracious growth of the grapevines of envy and jealousy that slowly choked the life out of your heart.
Legolas knew that he was doing you wrong.
At first, he had resented the meddlesome attitude of his father upon learning that a bride ā€“ a total stranger ā€“ had been selected for him and the fact that you had meekly agreed to that devious plot did not inspire great trust in him either.
He was aware of his social standing of course and he was afraid that it had merely been his title and not his person that had swayed a young lady of the court to accept the proposal made in his name and without his knowledge.
Upon seeing you though, he had to admit that you were indeed of a rare beauty, but your obedient, gentle demeanour still rubbed him the wrong way; he was relatively young and he desired to challenge and to be challenged in turn.
His heart had long been set on his friend ā€“ feisty, courageous, outrageous Tauriel ā€“ who made him feel as if he ā€“ as a person independently of his name and standing ā€“ had some inherent value.
Nonetheless, he could not deny that he felt guilty about having given his word ā€“ and his hand ā€“ in matrimony to a lady only to turn around and neglect her.
You acted so much like a merely decorative thing, sitting around like a perfect life-sized doll, that he found it a little too easy to discard you and pursue his own interests selfishly.
It was not even as if he didnā€™t like you; on the contrary, you were a great conversationalist and ā€“ being warm-hearted and kind ā€“ he did not doubt for a single second that you would be a great princess and ā€“ in time ā€“ maybe even queen to the realm.
Mindful of the safety and well-being of the subjects, you often spoke about concerns that sounded painfully dull to him.
How disappointed Thranduil had to be in him, Legolas thought, for his father had chosen a good match for the part of him that was prince and son to him. It followed ā€“ quite naturally ā€“ that, if you were not a good match for him as a person, it was inevitably due to the inferiority of said character.
Ultimately, Legolas ended up avoiding you because looking at you filled him with feelings of dread and guilt; he knew that he was running away from his own responsibilities and future by choosing to spend so much time with Tauriel rather than with his own wife, but he couldnā€™t help himself.
The burdens imposed upon him threatened to crush him and he was unsure if sharing his doubts with you would not lead to either even more weight being piled on his shoulders or ā€“ which would be far worse ā€“ to you being ground to a pulp as well.
You sat and suffered, in silence, in private, in vain.
Your pain was like a violent storm that never caused so much as a single ripple on the smooth surface of the lake that was your complexion.
Raised to be a lady, you watched your husband stray in mind and heart, seeking the company and solace of another while you wilted like a flower deprived of sunlight in your deserted chambers.
What did Tauriel have that you lacked?
You had wondered about that so much that the insidious, poisonous thoughts had left grooves in your soul like the deep gouges etched into the skin of the survivor of a warg attack.
She was impertinent and tempestuous, things you had been told and taught never to be, and it baffled you as much as it insulted you to see how bitterly you had been betrayed by your upbringing.
Had you been cultivated like a merely decorative plant? Had they ā€“ your parents, your tutors, your companions ā€“ known that youā€™d be pushed aside for a creature who had not had their wings clipped and their claws ripped out prematurely?
For years upon years, you had toiled and tried to be a good and worthy wife to Legolas, but he had never heeded you beyond the niceties that you had shared even before being betrothed.
In the end, your vow had been a hollow one for ā€“ no matter how well you performed all the tasks and tricks learned during arduous years of study ā€“ he was no closer to you now than he had been in that time before anyone had even thought of matrimony.
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I hope you liked this, stay tuned for Part II (if there's any interest for that of course :) )
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kiamescribbles Ā· 3 years ago
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Got Bored, Decided to introduce y'all to my BNHA Oc.
School Uniform! (Antennae 'down')
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Aizawa Kiame
Only daughter of pro-hero Aizawa Shouta; aka. Eraserhead. Mother died in labor and Dad-zawa is a platonic yandere who can and will threaten others to stay away from his daughter.
Was born with obvious Quirk (Moth Wings + Antennae) and at around 5-6 years old her less obvious abilities started showing up.
Abilities;
- Flight (unless it is raining or snowing in which case it becomes far more difficult for her to fly).
- Extra sensitive to chemical changes in the air (antennae pick up chemical differences and subtle air movements, making it easy to navigate in the dark/zero-light conditions, also dampened by rain).
- Powder; moth wings produce a very fine dust-like powder. The powder from her wings can take on different qualities, ie. Paralysis powder, sleep powder, poison powder, aphrodisiac powder, hallucinogenic powder,
- Regrowth; moth wings are fragile as are antennae, her wings are semi-strong and can bend/crumple/be tugged on without damage, but they can still rip, tear, freeze, ect but will regrow if given enough time.
- Cocooning; intensive recovery from injuries or fights, usually in case of completely removed or damaged wing. Cocoons in silk-string and has an expedited healing effect. Can also cocoon others, but it is a long process, so subject must be willing participant or unconscious. Can only do a full-body cocoon.
Sensitivities;
- Bright light is very distracting and can cause a trance-like state. (Moths do like light a lot)
- Nocturnal habits due to the nocturnal nature of moths and father.
- Intense smells (ie. Chemical presence) can cause distraction or disorientation.
- Extreme sweet-tooth, moths like nectar and all sorts of sugary substances, has a habit of binge eating sweets.
- Poor eyesight, when you have antennae that pick up on things around you, there is little need for eyesight. As a human, however, eyesight is important. Practically blind without glasses on.
- Water. Water is hard to swim in when you have wings that weigh you down once they get waterlogged. Rain makes it harder to fly, harder to sense chemical change, and near impossible to make powder in. Snow is powdery and has different impact as it isn't too hard to fly in- just freezes the wing tips off- chemicals are easier to pick up when not actively snowing but snowy in general, easy to make powder.
- Fragile wings; they can rip or tear easily and can freeze or burn quickly. They still have feeling so they do hurt when they are injured despite the regrowth capabilities. Very sensitive to touch.
Personality; Tired. Always tired and usually has a shorter temper as a result. Didn't want to be a hero but was targeted so often she may as well be a hero just to know how to protect herself. Doesn't like relying on her father- though she does adore him- or his pro-hero status for things or clout. Believes heroes should never be in it for the fame, just for helping others regardless of who. Has no interest in rank or fame, just wants to help however she can.
Hero Costume (antennae 'up')
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Hero Name; Moth (as uninspired as her father)
Design Choices;
- No need to see when antennae see 10x better without even using sight. Bright lights are distracting to the eyes so eyes are covered to prevent such distractions.
- Hair tied up and back to prevent it from getting in the way during a fight.
- Several flasks of collected powder from wings, each with different uses for more immediate and intense impact when needed.
- Skirt/Short combo so extra fabric doesn't get in the way but more concealing than spandex (Dad-zawa insisted on NO revealing costumes)
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glowinggator Ā· 4 years ago
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Cuddles - All Turtles
Request: Hi I really like you writes! keep up the good work, I was wondering if you could do a rottmnt cuddle Imagines? If that's fine?
Pairing: All Turtles! (Non-Poly)Ā 
Content: Fluffy as FUCK. Brush your teeth after you read this, cause itā€™s sweet as hell.Ā 
Raphael:Ā 
He loves to cuddle! But...heā€™s nervous. He doesnā€™t want to prick you with one of his spikes, or...worse. With his brothers, itā€™s different! Theyā€™ve got hard shells and plastrons, but youā€™re so... squishy! What if he hurts you?Ā 
He gets so happy about casual touch. Putting you on his shoulders? Throwing his arm around your shoulders? Affectionate hair ruffle? Heā€™s the physical embodiment of :)Ā 
If you want full cuddles, though, youā€™re gonna have to be the one to initiate it the first few times. Heā€™s just too nervous, otherwise.Ā 
Rest your head on his plastron when youā€™re watching a movie and heā€™ll melt.Ā 
Seeing how your arms maneuver around his spikes to embrace him, how gingerly you hold him...Maybe itā€™s possible. Maybe you two can cuddle without getting any boo boos.
He canā€™t really lay on his back because of his spikes. Heā€™ll either get stuck that way when his spikes inevitably get embedded into the material, or heā€™ll shred up whatever heā€™s laying on.
(Heā€™s banned from the beanbag chairs.)
He wants to be the little spoon so bad, but itā€™s physically impossible. Heā€™s forever bound to big spoon duty. Heā€™s okay with that, though.Ā 
(One time you showed up wrapped in mattress foam and bubble wrap to try and be the big spoon. It's a very fond memory, even if you were padded too stiffly to actually hold him.)Ā 
He likes to rest his head in your lap. Run your nails along his head or shell and heā€™ll be asleep in no time.
He wonā€™t lay on your stomach or chest though. He really wants to, but heā€™s afraid heā€™ll crush you. Thereā€™s no debate with that topic, unfortunately.Ā 
Heā€™s such a good big spoon!! Heā€™s so strong, and he cradles you like youā€™re the entire world. Because you are!Ā 
He likes to rest one hand on your stomach and tangle his other hand with yours. Itā€™s so cool to look down and see how his spikes cradle you. Almost as though you were a treasure encased in barbed wire, protected from the outside world.Ā 
You always feel so safe when you cuddle. I mean, itā€™s hard not to when youā€™re cocooned in 1000lbs of muscle and spikes!
His hold is firm, but noticeably gentle.Ā 
He runs pretty warm, compared to the rest of the turtles. Great in the winter time, not so great in the summer. Ā 
He traces little doodles on the back of your hand. You can never tell what they are, though. And he wonā€™t tell you what they are, if you ask. Ā 
(Theyā€™re dogs.)Ā 
Heā€™s not coldblooded, due to the way he was mutated. As such, he doesnā€™t really have any issues regulating his body temperature. He does find himself seeking out heat sources, however! Donnie calls it a vestigial response. Raph absolutely does not care about no scientific names or explanations: he just knows that he likes to sit under the heat lamp in the morning.
Prepare to be his next heat lamp.Ā 
If you come over in the mornings, prepare to be greeted with a very sleepy Raph the instant your feet hit the lair concrete.
Heā€™s never on his phone when you cuddle.
He is a talker, though. He doesnā€™t quite whisper, but he definitely invokes the gentle voice.Ā 
He falls asleep very quickly if he doesnā€™t keep himself talking. Your presence is just so calming to him, he canā€™t help it!Ā 
Heā€™s a very deep breather, and itā€™s really calming to listen to!
Unfortunately, he starts to snore about 15 minutes after he falls asleep. And heā€™s loud.Ā 
Youā€™ll get used to it, eventually.Ā 
Donatello
He doesnā€™t sleep consistently, so full cuddle sessions are far and few between.
He read that fake rumor that Albert Einstein only slept for five hours a year: while itā€™s since been debunked, itā€™s stuck with him. He started training himself when he was little to power nap instead, and now itā€™s hard for him to get out of the habit. Ā 
But..youā€™re a good motivator.
Heā€™s a little nervous around the concept of cuddling, at first. Heā€™s very touch-starved, and once you warm him up to the idea, itā€™ll be hard to pull him off you! But heā€™s incredibly nervous about it at first.
Itā€™s...intimate, you know? Heā€™s vulnerable, and that freaks him out.
His shell is super sensitive. Partially because itā€™s soft, but wearing his battle shell all the time has removed a lot of stimuli that would have made it less sensitive.
He reflexively rolls his shoulders when you run your hands along his exposed shell. At least, for the first few times. If you do it enough, itā€™ll quickly become a way for him to relax.
Likes to pull you to his chest and hold you like that. He usually has your head under his chin so he can scroll through his phone while you cuddle. He doesnā€™t move his arms much though, so itā€™s okay.
(He also likes it when youā€™re facing him so he can steal glances at you once you fall asleep. He thinks youā€™re even prettier when youā€™re completely relaxed.)
Youā€™ll rarely see it for yourself, but his eyes get all soft while youā€™re cuddling together. The quietest, calmest smile graces his features when youā€™re in his arms.
However, you do notice how all the tension fades from his body, and how his breathing seems to slow down.
Heā€™ll run his free hand along your back every now and then, pressing a quiet kiss to the top of your head.
He runs fairly cold, which is awesome in the summertime. He always lets you borrow his hoodies when you cuddle. If you ask nicely, heā€™ll let you keep ā€˜em, just so long as he has one or two in the closet.
His bed has super soft blankets, and theyā€™re so nice to curl up in. Youā€™ll probably stay there for a little while after he gets up, honestly.
Heā€™s not a talker, surprisingly. Every now and then heā€™ll pull his arm back to show you some meme on his phone, but thatā€™s about it. Heā€™ll listen to you though! He actually really likes it when you mutter about whatever's on your mind while you cuddle.
King of ā€œUh huh,ā€ ā€œWow,ā€ ā€œMmhm,ā€ and ā€œDamn thatā€™s crazy.ā€
He really is listening, though. He just likes to tease you a little bit.
His grip is either iron-tight or loose as hell.
On bad days heā€™ll curl up as the little spoon, and not even the gods could convince him to let go of you.
It takes him a while to warm up to the idea of being a little spoon. Both because his shell is hyper-sensitive, but it also kind of erodes that ā€œbad boyā€ persona heā€™s got going on.
Once heā€™s more comfortable with it, heā€™s about 50/50 on it. Heā€™s more likely to indulge himself on bad days, but it honestly just depends on his mood.
If you pull him away from work, you can bet that heā€™ll pull you to his chest while heā€™s sitting on the bed. Heā€™ll lean forward to rest his chin on your shoulder as he explains his latest breakthrough. He shakes a little bit when heā€™s excited, and you can feel it as he holds you. Ā 
He panics a little bit when heā€™s on his back, but he really likes it when you lay on his plastron, so...Chair cuddles!
He likes to have you in his lap while he works.
He also likes to kick his legs up onto your lap when watching TV. If you guys have the couch to yourselves, heā€™ll also lay all the way on your lap. If anyone sees you guys, or if anyone comments on it heā€™ll just hit ā€˜em with a very snarky quip.
ā€œOkay, and? At least I actually have a partner :)ā€
You donā€™t know how he said ā€œ:)ā€ outloud.
LeonardoĀ 
He thinks heā€™s so smooth, but honestly? Heā€™s such a dork.
Heā€™s huge on touch. But cuddling? Itā€™s a whole ā€˜nother ball game. He loves it a lot, but...heā€™s so vulnerable! Itā€™s so intimate to him. Heā€™s not adverse to it in the slightest; in fact, itā€™s the exact opposite! Heā€™s super excited when the topic comes up.
You can tell that the idea of fully cuddling affects him more than he lets on, because he wonā€™t stop talking when you bring up the subject for the first time. He rambles when heā€™s nervous.
(He talks with his hands a lot, and itā€™s really cute how he rambles and rubs the back of his neck.)
Heā€™s actually a great cuddler, though.
Big spoon? Hell yeah. Little spoon? Awesome. Horrific entanglement of limbs that would put eldritch horrors to shame? Sweet! Heā€™s just happy to be close to you.
He can go 50/50 on having his phone with him. If he does, heā€™s usually either watching memes with you or playing a mobile game.
(Kind of unrelated, but he was very excited about that weird, Subway Surfers revival that happened earlier this year. It was all he played for a while, and now you have the tune lodged in your brain forever.)
Heā€™ll talk for a little while if he doesnā€™t have his phone, before you settle into a comfortable silence.
Heā€™s either ranting about something shitty that happened that day, or shitposting. Thereā€™s no inbetween.
ā€œIf I shot someone from Texas while I was on the moon, would that fall under Texasā€™ jurisdiction or the moonā€™s?ā€
He also likes to trace little patterns on your hands, if he has access to them that day! You can usually tell what they are. Other times, it just seems like heā€™s finding an excuse to hold your hand. Itā€™s really cute.
(If you ask him what heā€™s drawing, heā€™ll say heā€™s reading your palms before dropping a sweet little line about how heā€™s in your future.)
(He does NOT know how to read palms but itā€™s the thought that counts <3)
Not ashamed about cuddling in public. Hell, if youā€™re fine with it, heā€™s more than happy to cuddle during movie night. In fact, itā€™s kind of a source of pride for him!
He looks so cocky about it that Donatello has to make a physical effort to NOT hit him.
Please run your palms over his shell, heā€™ll melt.
If heā€™s the big spoon, squeeze his biceps. He might not say it out loud, but heā€™s melting internally. It sticks in his head for at least a few weeks afterwards. Ego Boost 100
If youā€™re ticklish, prepare yourself for tickles. He strikes without a pattern, and without warning. He doesnā€™t always do it, though. Maybe about one in ten times. He just likes to hear you laugh :)
Heā€™s very nice to cuddle with overall. Heā€™s the best cuddler in the lair, hands down.
Michelangelo
Literally the only one in the lair who isnā€™t embarrassed when you bring up the topic.
Heā€™s been WAITING for this moment, actually.
Doesnā€™t care about whether heā€™s the big or little spoon.
Heā€™s super talkative when he cuddles, itā€™s cute. He usually likes to spend this time talking about one anotherā€™s day. Heā€™s a great listener too!
Heā€™s always 100% engaged in what you have to say.
He has trouble settling down outside of his normal schedule, so itā€™s rare that heā€™ll fall asleep while cuddling.
If youā€™re in a position that gives his arms a lot of mobility, heā€™ll draw on you. Not just tracing patterns, but heā€™ll actually bring out his markers and draw on your arms, back, or just any exposed piece of skin.
He always manages to find the prettiest colors to compliment your skin tone. You never want to wash it off, honestly.
He HAS to keep himself busy with something, or else heā€™ll explode. At least, thatā€™s how he describes it. If you try and get him to lay down and fall asleep...well, heā€™ll try! But heā€™ll be squirming the whole time.
Itā€™s best to throw on a Jupiter Jim movie if you want him to stay still.
He likes to tangle his legs with yours while you cuddle. Whether heā€™s taller or shorter than you, he WILL find a way.
Heā€™s the lightest out of all the turtles, so thereā€™s a possibility of letting him (partially) lay on you without shattering your sternum! Congratulations!
(Heā€™s around 525 lbs. Heā€™s only half of what Raph weighs, but he still has to be careful about how he lays on you. Itā€™s crazy to think that youā€™re so small compared to him.)
His hands are so cold, and heā€™ll absolutely use that to his advantage. If he gets bored, or if he just wants to make you laugh, heā€™ll grab your waist with his cold fucking hands. Hope youā€™re a northerner <3
He also likes to tickle you, way more than Leo.
Donā€™t try and tickle him though, he HATES it. Heā€™s absolutely the type of person to just Scream if you try.
Like I said, he gets bored really quickly. He also just likes to make you laugh.
If youā€™re cuddling in bed though, like right before he falls asleep? Itā€™s so nice.
Heā€™ll still tangle his legs with yours, but he moves so much slower. He loves to let his hands lazily roam across your form as he pulls you closer to him, savoring the comfort and heat that you bring. If he talks, itā€™s in drowsy whispers that only you two can hear.
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reflectionsofneptune Ā· 4 years ago
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little thingsĀ I associate withĀ the Mercury signs.
Little dreamy, abstract things I associate with the Mercury signs in Astrology.
Aries Mercury
Authoritative. When I want something, I make it clear. Crystal clear. No beating around the bush. A forceful way of speaking. Donā€™t talk about it, be about it. Short sentences. A hint of arrogance. Competitive edge seeping through my words. What can I say, I like to be a winner? At all times. A raspy voice. Adopting a youthful charm when it suits me. Attuned to perceiving danger in my environment. Disliking an over-emphasis of niceties in conversation. Keeping it real. Exercising to clear the mind. Pep - talks. The rev of an engine. Pedal to the metal. Talking to me, I need you to bring your A Game and something new. Conversation needs to be stimulating.Ā 
Taurus Mercury
Savouring. Words need to be savoured. Like beauty, they only get better with age. Listen carefully and hear what I stand for. Slowing down. Something about the handwriting. Cursive. An even tone. Words flow out of my mouth like maple syrup oozes down the height of a stack of fluffy, warm pancakes. Stubbornness. When am I ever wrong? Pictures, or itā€™s not real. Proof being recognised from what my base senses pick up. Inspiration from nature. A level-head. Choosing to see the beauty in my environment. For better or for worse. Donā€™t be fooled by my lack of conversation, I peep everything.Ā 
Gemini Mercury
Riddles. Iā€™m not going to tell you the answer but the curve of my lip might reveal itself when youā€™re getting close. Starting one conversation with one subject. Finishing the conversation with a completely different one. Playfulness. Humour as a tool of deflection. Quick texts. Leading conversations. Making a best friend in the supermarket. Another one, on the bus.Ā  Seeing the duality of things in my environment. Information is like crack. I canā€™t get enough. Multiple tabs, open. Nervous energy. Fiddling. Mimicking your mannerisms if I like you, verbally ripping you apart if it tickles my fancy. Or not, I get distracted quite easily so you may be let off the hook.
Cancer Mercury
Introspective. Thinking about the past. Sometimes not finding my way back to the present. Emotions filtering through my words. Perceptions are protective. A vintage film, the introduction devoid of colour. An interest in knowing where one comes from, what comforts someone. Needing to cleanse myself of everybodyā€™s emotional baggage. Again. Pathetic fallacy. Finishing your sentences. Promise its not on purpose. Wanting security from my environment. A psychological slant to conversations. A rich inner imagination. A diary, signed, sealed and under my pillow. Withdrawing into the cocoon of my thoughts when I feel threatened.Ā 
Leo MercuryĀ 
Commanding. A leadership position sounds good to me. Confidence in my thoughts. Words that can brighten up your life. Disney movies. Teasing conversations. Class clown. My thoughts are copyrighted. Bluffing. The curve a chest, puffed out to its maximum, makes. Talking loudly so Iā€™m sure you hear me. Describing something in such detail, so you can feel as if you were there. Piping hot tea. Intellect and ego tied together.Ā  Creativity expressed through speech. Seeing my immediate environment as a stage. Conversations in the mirror. The little grooves formed at the corner of the eyes when the smile is genuine. Blowing my own trumpet because if I donā€™t, who will?
Virgo Mercury
Organised. Seeing flaws in my environment. A to-do list, covered on both sides. Polite but not foolish. The spine of a book, crease free. Stepping back in conversation. The few creases that appear on the skin when a nose is wrinkled. Monotone. Advice given freely. Or withdrawing all help if I see it going through one ear and out the other. Discernment in conversation. Sticky notes. Attuned to see the bullshit in conversation. In life. Helpful suggestions. Take it or leave it. Mind feels like a hamster wheel. How do you turn this thing off?Ā  An upward line of a tick, in red. Not an excuse, but know that the harder I am on you, the harder I am on myself really.Ā 
Libra Mercury
Flirting. Feels as natural as breathing does. A sweet talker. The stem of cherry. A gentle lilt that comes alive in conversation. A fickle mind. Forever weighing up the proā€™s and cons. Birdsong, cutting through morning dew. Wanting peace from my environment. Trying to maintain peace in my environment. A white flag fluttering in the wind, atop a hill. Indecision feels paralysing. Waiting for you to finish speaking before I provide an opposing point of view. Feigning innocence. Learning about myself through conversations with others. Sometimes not liking what I see. 3 sides to a story. I am capable of a decision, I just feel better when the internal scales of my thoughts are balanced.Ā 
Scorpio Mercury
Power. Power plays in conversation. Checkmate. Words are comparable to pieces on a chessboard. Not a fan of small talk. Unless itā€™s for my benefit. Intuition on point. And then some. Probing. Trust issues. Talking to someone for a minute but deducing years of their life from a single meeting. Burner phones in a drawer. The eerie silence that comes around, say 4 AM. Secrets, mine and yours, help me fall asleep at night. Receipts for weeks, days and months. Iā€™ve got it all. Past hurts cut deep in my psyche. Eyebrows pulled together. Pretending to be deaf when convenient. Subject changes. A full stop. Knowledge is power. I am capable of sharing intimate details of myselfā€¦..you first though.Ā 
Sagittarius Mercury
YOLO. Sending those kinda texts to the wrong group chat by mistake. Saying what we were all thinking, even if itā€™s not theĀ ā€˜rightā€™ time, ā€˜cos fuck it. Slidinā€™ in the DMā€™s. Popping up like itā€™s nothing. You know me. Is time even real? The underside of a desk, covered with tags, love notes, and condom wrappers. Going off on social media. For a good cause, most of the time. Falling back on spirituality when life gets tough. Thought patterns are expansive and influenced by cultures and theories different than mine. Appreciating the differences in life. In people. Gift of the gab. That person whoā€™s laughing when no one else is. Believing in abundance because that's what my environment reflects back to me.Ā Stretching the fine line between truth and fantasyā€¦ā€¦.ā€™cos fuck it.
Capricorn Mercury
Blue ticks.Ā Time is of the essence. Thoughts are disciplined. A 3 tier desk organiser, stuffed to the brim with documents. Elocution lessons. Did you know I used to stutter? Deadpan jokes. A raised eyebrow. Judging people. We all do it, itā€™s innate to us. Keep your friends close. Enemies closer. Voicemail. I donā€™t need people to like me, but respect me is all I ask. A calculating mind. Always planning ahead. Sudoku puzzles. People give themselves away all the time, you just need to listen. Believing peopleā€™s actions over words.Ā Thoughts focused on external recognition became a burden I often didnā€™t ask for, weighs me down.
Aquarius Mercury
Observant. Seeing the subtle layers that make up human behaviour. People are fascinating. A 360 way of looking at things. Reverb on an electric guitar. Solution-focused. A finger on the pulse of undiscovered knowledge. Static from a radio dial. Iā€™m not afraid to question everything. An outdated statue, tipped. A love and hate relationship with time. Flashes of intuition. Needing time to process thoughts. A cool perspective. Shades of sunglasses, tinted yellow. Including people Iā€™ve never met in my thoughts. In my dreams. My wishes. A Brave New World? Iā€™m still waiting for people to step up and take responsibility.
Pisces Mercury
The red and white swirls of a helter-skelter ride. The path connecting my thoughts and my words is a little beaten. But not many people have bothered to venture this way. Pillow talk during the day. Drifting off in conversation. Overspilling in conversations. Or people, overspilling details of their life onto me. Missing appointments. Two circles merging into one if you stare long enough. Tapped into Source. Weaving you a dream with my words so good, I start to believe it. The afterword in a novel. Doodles in a margin. Sensitivity in conversation. Picking up a million and one signals from my environment. Using music to lose myself and ironically, find myself in the end.
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|Ā little thoughts about venus placements
|Ā little thoughts about the mars placements
| little thoughts about the saturn placements
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infinitesofnought Ā· 2 years ago
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Awareness of seeing is invisible. Awareness of hearing is silent. Awareness of touching is intangible. These three awarenesses are part of one indivisible personal awareness.
Personal awareness exists beyond both entropy and negentropy, it cannot seek itself or avoid itself by trying with direct personal effort.
To succeed in harmonizing mortal personal awareness with eternal transpersonal awareness, remain sensitive to sensitivity and aware of awareness, divesting from seeking or avoiding direct personal effort.
...Here I think that Taoism makes a decision to conflate the absence of subpersonal qualities of personal consciousness with an assumed absence of sensed qualities in sense itself. While I think this is false in an absolute or scientific sense, it is true enough locally that it is quite profound and leads to a useful philosophy for living our personal lives. This is the ā€œEastern Wayā€ toward the attainment of a fully satisfied selfless self, in diametric opposition to the ā€œWestern Wayā€ toward material attainment by a forever unsatisfied self that is selfishly ā€˜full of itselfā€™.
Going back to the re-interpreted text, I think that the advice given is that to follow the Tao, aka seek ā€˜flow statesā€™, one should, seemingly paradoxically, neither try nor avoid trying to take personal action. Perhaps it is the opposite of the Western sentiment attributed to Thomas Paine and George Patton ā€œLead, follow, or get out of the way.ā€ The Eastern sentiment could be read as ā€œDo not seek to lead or follow. Get out of the way.ā€ The idea is to use personal motivation to integrate itself with transpersonal sense and motives rather than to assert its personal agenda onto the rest of the (interpersonal, subpersonal, impersonal, transpersonal) universe. ...MSR proposes that while it is true that our personal cocoon of insensitivity causes a disconnection with all other conscious experiences, this disappearance of consciousness is no enigmatic ā€˜non-existenceā€™ or ā€˜suchnessā€™ as Taoism suggests. MSR suggests that beyond the sensory cataract of personal experience is not a grand nothingness to which all sense returns, but one lone Holos or totality within which all experience is preserved forever in some sense (similar to the concept of the Akashic Records).
The Totality of experiences are eternally present and experience-able in an Absolute sense, but all component experiences are diffracted through complex nested modulations of relative insensitivity. This diffraction temporarily limits the totality of sense experience to a single timeline of experience that senses itself in terms that echo the very condition of that temporary limitation. Each diffracted partition of the Holos is a temporarily temporalized version of eternal experience into an episodic stream of memory-laden feelings and thoughts. This is the the binding of our subjective qualities of experience, including the sense of being a subject.
...In MSR, I critique physical entities like mass and energy as reductionist quantitative abstractions that accidentally deny the underlying universal fabric of qualitative sense affect and motive effect. Primordial sensory affect and motive effect replace mass and energy as the local modes of participation. The physical universe of anesthetic-mechanical appearances is understood to be a kind of shadow of the Aesthetic Holos that reflects the ability of consciousness to partially divide and alienate itself for purposes of multiplying and enriching itself. The physical world is not an illusion, simulation or maya, it is just that reality in the local sense is an inverted reflection of reality in the absolute sense.
...Everything from social media to the Metaverse to AGI is expanding our connection to disconnection. I think that because of that grounding in disconnection, all of these projects are ultimately doomed to failure in the ways that truly matter to us, despite promising exponential success in the ways that Western-Materialist model and its virally expanding institutions have conditioned us to think that we should want. We dreamed of extraterrestrial conquest, and instead we are conquering ourselves with anti-terrestrial nauseas. We have mistaken the uncanny for the sublime.
...Taking this back to the Tao Te Ching, I propose that Lao Tzuā€™s error is only an error in the absolute sense, not in a personal sense. While we are alive, the transpersonal conscious experience that envelopes our personal conscious experience is silent, invisible and intangible. We can only get glimpses of it when weā€™re not looking and our envelope of limited personal awareness is slightly breached such as noticing synchronicity or completely opened up in a life altering event. When those larger breaches occur and the personal intellect is flooded with its version of transpersonal awareness, some contents are necessarily distorted and omitted. Personal awareness correctly identifies its contact with transpersonal awareness as more significant than ordinary experience but without any means to ground it in its ordinary sense-making terms. Hence, to the outside observer, the psychedelic or mystical experience is seen charitably as visionary or uncharitably as psychotic.
To temper that extreme, chaotic end of the spectrum of consciousness, MSR should be seen as only an outer framework of philosophy to point toward the possibility of a new synthesis between the systemizing and empathizing modes of awareness. That possibility would be fulfilled when people free themselves from pathological extremes and find common sense closer to the terrestrial center of our universe and the fully individual and human center of ourselves.
ā€“ Craig Weinberg (x)
I agree with most of this post and suggest reading it in its entirety, but I don't think that the concepts of "nothingness" and "suchness" are really where the error is located. I think the error is a disavowal of "everythingness" - but it goes the other way as well. Going beyond either duality or non-duality means recognizing that "nothingness" and "everythingness" are really the same.
What is "suchness"?
Difficult to describe in words - but the "suchness" of, say, a flower means its unknowable essence, which includes the fact that it points to, and implies, everything that exists beyond or outside of it (the Totality). It is merely an expression of everything that came before it, as well as the ultimate principles that determine how things evolve.
(And yet it is what it is as well - this flower, here - nothing other than that.)
"They say each thing conceals some hidden thing. Yes, it is the thing itself, this unhidden thing, That lies concealed within." (Fernando Pessoa)
And yet. All of these principles and how they evolve, all of this totality, is nothing other than what it is. None of it actually "means" anything other than: this is how things are, in this universe. There's no, say, universal signifier that says that this is the way things have to be. It just...happened this way. This implies that the opposite could be true. Every affirmation contains within it its negation, and vice-versa.
(Again, difficult to describe in words, because there's in sense in which it had to be this way, couldn't have been any other way.)
Not only that, but when we refer to Totality we have to take into account how things could evolve in the future. In other words, what we have is not an inert record, but a record that pulses with potentiality.
That potentiality, which exists...before or behind everything, is the sense beyond sense. It is the taught string of the lyre. The Totality is every way the string has moved in the past, and every way it will move in the future. But what of the silence to which the string returns when its vibration dies down?
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honeyteo Ā· 2 years ago
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loyalty, or lack thereof
I finally wrote something on Canals of Sensitivity! This is a short story prompted by someone asking if such a story existed. I love angsty shit, so hereā€™s my try!
[Teo x MC] tw: cheating As always, all of my writing is intended for 18+ audiences.
Sumi holds her phone close to her face, nose nearly touching the screen as she scrolls through the new messages from her boyfriend.
Heā€™s having so much fun on the set, and even though heā€™s exhausted, heā€™s enjoying himself. Heā€™s excited. Her toes curl at his smiling face in a selfie he sends, smiling back at the screen.
Her thumb runs over his cheek, and she feels a deep pang of longing in her heart, and in her body. She wants him so badly, but they never seem to broach the subject of meeting.
Sumi lets out a sigh and rolls over, tangling herself further in her sheets as her eyes peer up at the ceiling. Didnā€™t he want her, too? He would sometimes vaguely hint at it, but it wasnā€™tā€¦ enough. She needed more. She couldnā€™t survive off of texts and calls alone.
Which is whyā€¦
ā€œYour phone screen is so bright,ā€ a voice next to her mumbles from beneath covers.
Sumi tilts her head towards the sound, smiling a little as she moves to tug the covers aside enough to see his face. He grunts, dark eyes closing against the phone glare as he stretches in his cocoon of blankets.
ā€œWell I need to see it. Itā€™s important,ā€ she replies in a teasing voice, running a finger down his nose.
He opens his eyes to look at her for moment before closing them again. She bites her lip as his breathing slows.
ā€œHey. I wanna go again.ā€
His eyes open again at her words, staring into hers for a long moment.
ā€œAgain? What are you looking at on your phone?ā€
She smiles pleasantly, but her eyes gleam less warmly at the question. ā€œI told you. Something important.ā€
He averts his eyes, as if lost in thought. She hardly minds him as she looks at her phone, reading Teoā€™s last messages and typing out a quick response.
ā€œOkay,ā€ he finally mutters, beginning to push himself up and reaching for her.
Her heart leaps in excitement, body buzzing. Sheā€™s barely looking at him while he pulls the blankets off, eyes glued to her screen.
Another message pops up.
Teo: Can I call you, honey?
She smiles, chest warm at the thought of hearing his voice. She pulls her hand away from him and types out a reply.
Sumi: I canā€™t right now, but Iā€™ll call you in a little while! Muah <3
ā€œAre you gonna put your phone down?ā€ he asks, sounding a bit put-off by her distraction. She doesnā€™t respond, clicking on picture of Teo and staring at his face to memorize it.
ā€œOkay,ā€ she finally says, locking her phone and setting it aside, ā€œIā€™m ready.ā€
She smiles up at him, seeing purple in his eyes.
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lunaverseimagine Ā· 4 years ago
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Worth Living For
Part 2 of Worth Dying For
Request:Ā ā€œCongrats on 500! I'm new to tumblr and love your blog! can you do Herbology with post war George and telling him you want to name your baby Fredā€ - @green-intervention So this was a headcanon request for my 500 sleepover but it fit Worth Dying For so perfectly that I made it into a part 2 instead
Pairings: George x Reader
Warnings: Grief, pregnancy, mentions of death
Word count: 1.5k
Fic:
Streaks of moonlight shone through the tall window, casting a gentle glow on Georgeā€™s face. The white light highlighted the gauntness of his cheeks and the glazed look in his eye, a sight that made your stomach clench.Ā 
ā€œGeorgie.ā€
His eyes flicked down to where you were lying on the sofa with your head in his lap. His fingers were running idly through your hair - sensations grounded him, in particular the feeling of your presence. Three months had passed but you were still his lifeline, and you didnā€™t think that would change soon.
ā€œI think-ā€ You swallowed, maintaining eye contact. ā€œI think itā€™s time we visit your parents.ā€Ā 
Georgeā€™s hand stilled and he clenched his jaw. You knew this was a sensitive subject, but equally you knew going to the burrow would be good for him. The burden of grief is easier to bear when the people around you are feeling the same way; when you can share in your mourning. You had loved Fred like a brother but you hadnā€™t been there from the beginning, not like Georgeā€™s siblings had. He needed his family, needed to be with people who had known Fred as he did, who felt the loss as he did. He couldnā€™t keep hiding in your apartment, a truth he knew as well as you did. George sighed.
ā€œI know.ā€ He glanced at your belly, at the little bump just starting to show. Your hand cupped it instinctively. ā€œThey need to know.ā€
You sat up so you were facing George, holding his hands in your own, running your thumbs soothingly over his coarse skin.
ā€œWeā€™ll tell them together.ā€ Leaning forward, you captured Georgeā€™s lips in a gentle kiss. You focused on being present: the way George tasted of cinnamon. How his hands felt slightly cold in yours. How your knee was pressing against his. You tried not to focus on the sacrifice that had been made so you could be here. The sacrifice Fred had made to save not just one life, but two. How up until now, the pregnancy was tying you and George to Fredā€™s memory. It was special, something that hadnā€™t been told to anyone else. You worried that by telling your families, the tie to Fred would weaken, and his memory would slip further through your fingers.
--
You held Georgeā€™s hand while apparating, watching anxiously as the lopsided stories of the burrow came into view. When your feet were firmly on the ground you waited for George to move towards the door, but he stayed rooted to the spot. After a moment of taking in the familiar home, a tear slid down his cheek, and you couldnā€™t help but feel overwhelmed too. These walls held so many memories of Fred that it was impossible to stand in front of them without the loss hitting you like a bludger. A reminder of all the memories that wouldnā€™t be made in the future. How Fred would never meet his nephew.
You embraced George, as though you could squeeze strength into him. He rested his chin on top of your head.
ā€œIā€™m ok love.ā€
You shook your head slightly at the lie. ā€œYouā€™re not, but you will be.ā€
You each took a deep breath and walked into the burrow, hand in hand.
Molly was in the kitchen, and at the sight of you she burst into tears, her words incoherent through her sobs. But the bone crushing hug she encased the two of you in said more than words ever could.
ā€œBlimey Molly, whatā€™s wrong-ā€ Arthur stopped short on the last step of the haphazard staircase, eyes widening at the scene in front of him. His face had turned white, and equally pale faces emerged one by one behind him. First Ginny, followed by Ron, Harry, Hermione, and Percy. The Weasleys seeing George must have been an even more emotional experience than that of you seeing the burrow. It was impossible not to feel the missing piece of the family when faced with his twin, like looking at a guitar with no strings. Nobody quite knew how to maneuver the situation, the only sound being Molly sniffing as she wiped her nose with a handkerchief.Ā 
Finally the rest of the Weasleys, as well as Harry and Hermione, seemed to come to their senses, closing the distance between you to share hugs and whispered condolences. George was interacting but as though heā€™d removed himself from the situation, like he was there physically but emotionally he was far away, trying to cope with his feelings. The grief came in waves, this wave feeling like the tallest one yet, and it was all George could do to keep his head above water.Ā 
During the day the tone of conversation was kept light, and George became more present, engaging in conversations about what had been happening the last few months. Molly cooked a delicious meal that not only fed you and the baby, but couldā€™ve fed an entire nursery, and as your stomach filled a bit of the emptiness did too. Fred was gone and nothing would make that ok, but there was still a great family who would remember him, and as long as they were alive a bit of Fred would be too.Ā 
It was after dinner that you and George decided, through silent glances, to break the news to the family. The chatter had lulled and each individual seemed lost in their own thoughts, although undoubtedly they all revolved around the same person. George cleared his throat.
ā€œY/n and I have some news.ā€ George looked at you, asking for permission to continue. While neither of you had said it out loud, you knew that this pregnancy was a connection to Fred for him too. That telling other people felt like giving away bits of that connection, which was difficult to bear. But at the same time, maybe there was a way you could honour Fred through the pregnancy, and thatā€™s when the thought came to you. You nodded for George to continue, suddenly buzzing with the feeling of sharing your idea. It was perfect. ā€œY/nā€™s pregnant.ā€
The cries of joy were immediate and heartfelt. Georgeā€™s hand clasped yours under the table as you were congratulated, hugged, and even kissed by Molly. The atmosphere in the room felt so much lighter, as though this was the good news the Weasleys had been waiting for for three months.
Late into the night, when the celebrations had finally calmed down, you bid your goodbyes before apparting back to your apartment. It seemed less daunting now, knowing that at any time the burrow was just an apparition away. You and George got ready for bed in silence, George reflecting on the day and working through the complex feelings being back at the burrow had brought, you working out how to bring up the idea that had consumed your thoughts for hours. You climbed into bed, laying your head on Georgeā€™s chest, his arm wrapped securely around your shoulders.
ā€œThank you.ā€ His whisper was quiet and soft.
ā€œWhat for?ā€
ā€œFor telling me to see them.ā€ He pressed a kiss to the crown of your head. ā€œThank you.ā€
ā€œIā€™m glad it helped.ā€Ā 
For a while you let the silence wrap around you like a cocoon, your safety net. Approaching the topic you desperately wanted to talk about made your hands clammy and your heart race, not knowing how it would make George feel. All you wanted was for him to be happy - what if this was a terrible idea? What if itā€™d do the opposite of making George happy? That would break your heart. Before you could persuade yourself out of it you piped up.
ā€œGeorgie?ā€
ā€œMmhm?ā€ You lifted your head off his chest so you could watch him.
ā€œI was thinkingā€¦ maybe we could- if you wanted to, of course- we could name the baby Fred?ā€ You felt your heart thumping in your chest as you waited for his reply.
Not for the first time that day Georgeā€™s eyes filled with tears, and he shook his head fondly, wondering why he hadnā€™t thought of it himself. ā€œItā€™s perfect.ā€ Arms wrapped around you, he kissed you passionately. Your hands cupped his face, feeling his stubble beneath your fingers. He was in awe of you. Of how you knew exactly what he needed. Knew how to honour Fred in the best way possible, with the baby that Fred had died to save. His legacy.
Eventually George broke the kiss. ā€œWhat if itā€™s a girl?ā€ You laughed, and so did he, the beautiful sounds mixing with tears you were getting used to shedding. You savoured the light in Georgeā€™s eye, how he seemed more alive now than he had in months.
ā€œItā€™s not.ā€ George grinned at your response.
ā€œHow do you know?ā€ You grinned back, and silently thanked Fred for the gift heā€™d given you. This baby was the light and hope that you and George needed so desperately. You could feel, from somewhere inside you much deeper than reason, that you were right. The baby would be a boy, with an uncanny likeness to his Dad and Uncle. The thought excited you, making the future seem bright despite the current darkness. You rested both hands on the bump.
ā€œMotherā€™s instinct.ā€
End
Thank you for reading! I hope this was a bit less angsty than the first part - if you liked it please feel free to reblog/give feedback <33
If youā€™re interested hereā€™s my other stuff
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minty-malfoy Ā· 4 years ago
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milk and honey
ā€¢ pairing: draco malfoy x fem!reader
ā€¢ summary: when living feels like purgatory, you find heaven in the comfort of a lover.
ā€¢ request: Hey i have a request. Can you write draco x female reader with a plot where she is totally pissed with life in sense where she has problems everywhere; school,home and draco is just being there for her and helping her through it. P.s: Include warm and comforting hugs and little pecksā¤ļø
ā€¢ warning tags: brief mentions of sensitive topics, but everything else is fluff
ā€¢ word count: 1.2k
a/n: I wrote this at 2 am but I promise I tried proofreading at a more humane hour of the day. this is one of my older requests that I haven't gotten around to writing, hope you enjoy <3
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Draco had just recently come to the bitter conclusion thatā€” despite what you tell himā€” it didn't feel like you were doing alright. His hypothesis became factual on the days your eyes didn't reflect the smile on your lips, or on the days you huffed out more than once or twice, only to recoil into the grown habit of an "it's nothing"
Draco really did try to be an understanding boyfriend, in the sense that he never pestered, never once pushed a subject you were so persistent to avoid. He was stuck telling himself the same string of lies over and over, memorizing it like a mantra. That you were just having a bad day; that you'd talk about it when you'd feel ready, just like you promised; that you wouldn't carry lethal burdens on your own no matter how tempting it was to leave him out of your suffering.
But the moment he saw you arrive late to dinner with both eyes stained and puddled, he knew the predicament was no longer a factā€” it was an urgency. One that he'd give anything in the world to eradicate.
You sat yourself beside him without muttering a single word, looking away to avoid the questions that would inevitably plunge out sooner or later. But they never came, instead being replaced by the warmth of a hand lacing itself into yours, fitting through the gaps of your fingers like a completed work of art.
That was how the two of you spent the rest of dinner, wrapped up in a comfortable and understanding silence. You didn't look at him, but you felt his hand never once leaving you, between sending slow soothing strokes down your back, holding your waist gently as he watched you nibble your food, or simply going back to hold your fingers in his.
No matter how concerned or hurt he was to see you miserable, Draco put in the effort of generously giving you a moment of time and space, he was determined to address the issue only when the storm inside you would have quieted down for all the rain and thunder to go away, so that this once, he could persuade you into telling him what exactly was bothering you this entire time. Then, better yet, put a permanent end to it.
By the time the two of you walked out of the Great Hall, he didn't walk you through the regular direction towards your common room, but instead led you to a destination you were yet to discover. It confused you, but you didn't object him slowly leading the way.
You didn't expect to end up in the courtyard, but here you were, in the hands of your concerned lover, accompanied by nothing but the night and the distant sound of crickets chirping.
His hands met yours nearly as fast as his eyes did, in which concern decorated both orbs like a christmas ornament. Icy greys glimmering just as bright as the moonlight, pulling you in to briefly discard all your troubles and worries for a moment, until he brought you back into the present with his words.
"What's wrong?"
The question was firm and delicate, overflowing with all the love he had for you. You realized you couldn't bear lying to him anymore.
"Everything." Your voice cracked.
It was almost visible the way his heart had dropped in his chest, but he didn't want it to be. This was about you, and only you. Anything else wasn't supposed to matter in the moment.
Before Draco could say anything or ask you to elaborate, the sound of your pent up pain surfacing into sobs attacked his auditory senses like a knife. He was frantic with concern and worry, trying to figure out how to make everything better.
"Oh, darling, come here," You let him pull you into his arms, more than willingly. You needed the warmth of his embrace and the constant feeling of his breathing against your cheek. He let you cry into his chest, one hand holding your waist tightly as if you'd disappear the moment he let go, the other tenderly stroking through your hair.
You cried and cried, letting out all the pent up tension, all the hurt you've been trying to hide from him. You wanted to talk to him, tell him how you've felt lately, but you weren't sure where to start.
"I justā€” I'm sorry, Dray. I thought I could deal with it on my own, but luck hasn't really been on my side lately."
He lets you finish before saying, "You don't have to, love. Let me help."
You don't respond for a few seconds, blinking once. Twice. Shedding the last few drops of tears swelling on your lashes.
When you begin to let it all out, he listens attentively, holding you in his arms, where your hands come to find refuge against his chest.
Life wasn't giving you the best set of cards to tackle it with, pitting you into horrible situations left and right. Whether it was the badly marked assgnments you've spent hours working on, or the turbulent relationship with your family back home.
For a moment, it felt frightening. To let all your fears and concerns be known, saying them out loud for the first time and making the words feel much more real. Let alone when it was to the person you loved wholeheartedly and couldn't stand to burden.
Yet simultaneously, it made the issues feel less heavy on your shoulders. You weren't sure how it was possible, but it may have been the effect of the peaceful night air, or perhaps Draco's effect on you. Whichever one it was, you couldn't tell.
You finally finished up with a quiet sniffle, snuggling deeper into his chest. "My parents haven't stopped lecturing me in their letters, this time. It just hurts."
Draco cups your cheek, tilting your head up slightly so that your eyes could meet his. "Darling, I wish you would've told me sooner."
"I know." You look down shyly.
He doesn't say anything, mostly because he's the type of person that believes love translates through actions better than it does through words. So he does exactly that, showering you in sweet little pecks that begin to form constellations on your skin.
His scent is soothing, more than anything. Familiar and comforting, just like how you'd describe the fragrance of one's homeā€” or yours, at least.
But Draco felt more than just home. As though when you look into his eyes, you imagine catching glimpses of the land of milk and honey. His arms bring you to a place where clouds are made of cotton and the fields glimmer brighter than an emerald green. When you kiss him, everything ceases to matter.
"Would you like to stay the night?" He offers, brushing away the remaining wetness on your cheeks with his thumbs. "I'm taking you out on a date at Hogsmeade tomorrow. If you'd give me the pleasure, that is."
For the first time, your lips break into a smile at his words. "Yes, I'd very much like that."
The two of you stay there for just the slightest bit longer, wrapped in an invisible cocoon that promises nothing but an abundance of love and comfort.
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