#the cocoon (sensitive subject)

[shouyuus]

some roommatevi! stuff i'd go rabid over you writing >:333

helping vi dye her hair

sharing a bed during a winter power outage (pre-relationship)

pretending to be a couple in front of someone from your past

vi accidentally sending you a flirty text meant for one of her hook ups

wrote the first two :) saving the next two for maybe later hehe

college roommate!vi cinematic universe

"hold still --"

"it tickles!"

you roll your eyes, tugging on a strand of vi's hair, frowning even as she hisses and casts you a half-hearted glare from the mirror you're both staring into, her sitting cross-legged in front of it, you kneeling behind her with your hands in black plastic gloves, trying to lather her roots in enough dye to cover them properly.

"tickles what? your scalp?" you ask, glaring right back as you flip a strand over and pick up a new one. vi bites her lips, huffing out a breath, a faint pinkness creeping into her cheeks.

"nevermind."

you sigh, "well next time you ask me to help dye your roots, tell me before if you have weird scalp sensitivities," you flip over another strand, though this time taking care to be gentler.

vi tuts, "it's not -- ugh. forget it, cupcake."

"alright. there. i think that's..." you look over your work, nodding, "about as good as it's gonna get."

vi shoots you a grin, patting your leg as you stand up and groan, rubbing at your knees, the skin there red from kneeling so long on the hard floor of your apartment.

"thanks cupcake, i owe you one. here --"

you nearly topple over as vi leans in to press a kiss to your knee, her eyebrows kicking up when your ass knocks back into the dining table, staring at her.

"ow -- w-what --"

vi smirks, "to kiss it better."

you press your lips, heat flaring up the back of your throat as she blinks innocently up at you, one of her palms still resting against your thigh, holding your leg up.

"it's -- it's fine, you don't have to --"

but vi's already letting go of one leg, to reach for the other. and you swear there's a dark, almost predatory glint in her eyes as she glances back up at you before dropping a quick kiss to your other knee.

"there. all better, right?"

and you know she's teasing, but your heart is beating hummingbird fast at the back of your throat, and there's a dull humming in your head that makes you wonder if an entire hive of honeybees have moved into the space between your ears.

you can almost taste the sweet syrup of honey on your tongue as you gulp down a breath and vi pushes up to her feet.

"thanks again, dollface. i really do owe you one."

---

"this is insane."

"i know. i've already called the electrical company and the building management --"

"hey sweets, c'mere -- i wasn't talking about you --"

you sigh, letting vi pull you into the pile of blankets atop her bed. she wraps an arm around you, letting you snuggle into her side.

"i know, i know but it just --" she groan, burying your face in her pillow (it smells like her, god it smells like her), "you know i hate it when --"

"stuff doesn't go the way it's supposed to?" you feel her pinch at your waist; you squeak, shooting back up to glare at her. "yeah, trust me. i know."

but her expression is warm, and her laughter, even more so, as she pulls you tighter into the bundle of blankets.

"c'mon... it's not so bad. i mean. at least we can keep each other warm, right?"

you laugh, letting yourself slump into the massive pile of blankets and sheets. you feel her arms looping around you, tugging you closer, and her skin is so hot, so smooth -- smells so good --

"yeah, and you're a human space heater -- god, how do you live during the summers?" you ask, giggling as the pair of you curl up against each other.

"mn. lots of ice-baths."

you shiver, crinkling your nose. you're face to face now, the pair of you cocooned in a nest of fluffy blankets.

"ice baths?"

"yeah, it's good for muscle recovery."

you giggle, shaking your head, "i can't imagine willingly subjecting yourself to that for... muscle recovery."

"yeah? and you think drinking fifteen cups of coffee in a 12 hour span is good for you?"

you let out an indignant squeak even as vi grins.

you bicker about this or that for another fifteen minutes or so before vi inches closer; your noses almost brush in the midnight dark, the winter moon half-full and glowing distantly outside her window.

"think it'll be fixed by tomorrow?" you ask, sighing as you pull a bit of blanket closer to yourself over your shoulder. vi makes a noncommittal noise, jerking you towards her till your entire bodies are pressed, and you have to stop yourself from trying to count all the different and distinct points of contact -- ankles, knees, thighs, hips, her palm pressing to the small of your back, holding you close, close, closer --

"maybe. maybe not. but if it isn't --" vi shifts so that your noses actually do brush and it takes everything inside you not to either pull back or press in closer, "at least you'll still have a me as a human space heater."

you smile, nuzzling in, reaching out to press your palm against the bend of her waist. she gasps, just the smallest breath, but you hear it. up this close, you can almost hear the sound of her heartbeats. you wonder, in the same breath, if she can hear the sound of yours.

"yeah," you say, grinning as vi tries to cough away the blush threatening her cheeks, "that i do. and i guess i should thank my lucky stars, huh."

vi smiles, "or, you could just thank me instead."

[duachai]

GOLDEN - SAN | ATEEZ

Finally, you put my love on top, baby, you're the one that I love, baby, you're all I need

♱ PAIRING : CHOI SAN X MALE READER

♱ SYNOPSIS : San and M/n find comfort in each other during a quiet dinner date

♱ CONTENT WARNING : None

♱ AUTHOR'S NOTE : It's a little short, I'm sorry :(

♱ REQUESTED : YES (ANON)

LINKS : Wattpad | Kofi

The faint glow of city lights spilled into the private corner booth of a chic restaurant, casting warm hues over the table adorned with elegant plates and crystal glasses.

San, bright, magnetic San, sat across from M/n, his eyes crinkled with a soft smile as he watched his boyfriend thoughtfully poke at a colorful array of roasted vegetables.

“You know,” San began, his voice low but filled with joy, “I could stare at you all night and not get tired of it. But if you keep playing with your food, I might have to take over.”

M/n looked up, embarrassed, his cheeks flushing a delicate pink. “I’m not playing with it,” he protested in bit in a whine, though a shy smile tugged at his lips. “I was just thinking. It’s so nice to have this time with you. No schedules, no cameras. Just us.”

San reached across the table, his fingers brushing against M/n’s. “Exactly why I to you here. You deserve it, baby.”

M/n’s sensitive nature meant he often got lost in his thoughts, overwhelmed by the fast-paced world of idols. As a member of Seventeen, the demands on his time and energy were relentless. San understood that, and he was no stranger to the grueling schedules of the entertainment industry. Their shared experience gave them a bond few could comprehend.

“How are the vegetables?” San asked, changing the subject with a gentle nudge. He knew M/n sometimes needed time to process his emotions before sharing.

M/n’s face lit up as he took another bite. “Amazing. I could live on this.”

San chuckled, leaning back against the plush booth. “And yet you’d still sneak bites of my kimchi if I had it right now.”

M/n’s eyes sparkled mischievously. “That’s different. Your cooking is impossible to resist.”

Their laughter wove a cocoon around them, blocking out the hum of the restaurant. San’s heart swelled, seeing M/n’s tension melt away. He’d always admired M/n’s romantic streak, the way he noticed the little things along with the scent of cherry blossoms in the spring, the way the stars aligned in a clear sky, or even how San’s voice softened when he sang just for him.

“I have something for you,” San said suddenly, reaching into his jacket pocket. He pulled out a small, neatly wrapped box and slid it across the table. “Before you ask, no, it’s not an anniversary or anything. I just wanted to remind you how much you mean to me.”

M/n’s fingers trembled slightly as he unwrapped the box, revealing a delicate bracelet adorned with a single charm. A tiny heart-shaped leaf, crafted from jade.

“It reminded me of you,” San said, his voice soft. “Gentle, green, full of life. Like the way you’ve grown into this amazing person, even with everything you’ve been through.”

Tears pricked M/n’s eyes. He blinked rapidly, trying to keep them at bay. “San… it’s beautiful. Thank you.”

“You don’t have to thank me,” San murmured, standing to circle the table. He clasped the bracelet around M/n’s wrist, then pressed a lingering kiss to his temple. “I love you.”

M/n turned to face him, his eyes shimmering. “I love you too, San. More than words can ever say.”

They stayed like that for a moment, the world around them fading into a blur. It didn’t matter that they were both idols, constantly scrutinized and pulled in every direction. In that instant, they were simply San and M/n, two hearts intertwined, finding comforting each other’s presence.

As they left the restaurant hand in hand, the city buzzed around them, but their steps were light. The weight of their lives didn’t feel so heavy when they were together. They knew tomorrow would bring its challenges, but for now, they had tonight, a night of shared solace, laughter, and love.

[night-heart]

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If Luna and Celestia were status reversals in the last post, then Wormcocoon and Rhyme are reversals of fortune

Crystal Cocoon is the long-serving, iron-fisted ruler of the Crystal Empire. He has a strong uneasiness about the borders of the country, and is a dull and uninteresting person who is obsessed with consolidating his power and has an overprotective and controlling attitude towards his subjects. But it is also because of the high alertness and training that he has repeatedly repelled the invasion of the Black Crystal King so that he has never succeeded.

Later, after the emergence of the Phantom Spirit race on the continent, they were pressured to form an alliance with Luna's horse country. The Phantom Spirits' method of invasion is very different from that of the Black Crystal King, and the Crystal Cocoon is almost powerless to do anything about it, becoming sensitive, thin, and neurotic from the days and nights of personal labor.

Demon Law, on the other hand, is the queen of the Illusory Spirit Clan. They are born with the ability to bewitch people, disguising themselves as glamorous and making intimate relationships with others, gradually sucking their emotional energy and turning it into their own life force.

Demon Ruler tries to cover up her broken body to fill her empty heart with the love of others day in and day out. She specializes in playing male horses into her hands, and one of the young up-and-coming archmages of the Crystal Empire's royal family, Silver Glimmer (Silver Armor), is one of them

Phantom Spirits' bodies are the same pink color as Demon Law, and even if they haven't experienced the burns of the original their bodies are still riddled with holes, and the emptiness that comes from their hearts becomes their own most feared form. Disgusted with the ugly body constantly transformed into a more shiny skin to cover their own uneasiness

Crystal Cocoon hates Demon Rhythm, and like the original Sky Ray is trolled by others for aging. Rhyme treats her people with gentleness, letting them go wherever they want to draw love back into their nests to feed themselves

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[ … ] ❀ you’re not from around here , are you ? i figured because you totally just missed winona morris walking by. don’t tell me you don’t know who she is ? they kind of look like samantha logan and i could be wrong but i think that they might be twenty-eight years old right now. they’ve been living in palmview for the last two years. and i don’t know if anyone has ever told them this before but they kind of remind me of beth march from little women. if you stick around the town long enough you might catch them in action working at fleurist as the owner / florist. you see this town isn’t really that big of a place, some folks like to call them the green thumb of palmview! they took a liking to the name too after a while, go figure. oh crap, they must have heard me yapping. they’re coming this way. i got to warn you though, rumor has it they can pretty worrisome at times. i wouldn’t take it too seriously though, from the times i’ve spoken to them they seemed pretty disciplined to me. we see each other all the time since they live in that one bedroom apartment beside me over in seaglass heights. i better leave you to it. it was nice meeting you !

STATS:

full name :       winona quinn morris nickname(s) :       winnie birthplace :       san diego, california date of birth :       02 / 28 / 1996 parentage :       unknown sibling(s) :       ____ morris relationship status :       single gender identity :       cis woman ( she/her ) sexual orientation :       lesbian bisexual faceclaim :       alisha boe

BACKGROUND: ( tw: mentions of neglect, homophobia, anxiety, and depression )

winnie isn’t very sure of her lineage. she knows she was adopted at the age of two, but she has no prior knowledge of her bio family. her adoption was a closed one, and it seemed to be how both parties preferred it.

adopted by jonathan and susanne morris, two prominent lawyers in their area. they had plenty of money and room to share. however, what they had in material items, they lacked in love.

winnie loved her parents fiercely as a young child. she didn’t understand that she and her brother were simply trophies for her family to show off to the public. her and her brother weren’t their children who they loved and adored, they were proof to the public of their generosity and their good-nature.

growing up, winnie spent most of her time with different nannies. she longed to spend time with her parents, and the nannies she’d had were kind enough to keep their opinions on her parents to themselves. they would always assist her in drawing pictures for her mom and dad (that were always met with mild enthusiasm).

it was hard to be a kid in the morris home. expectations were always very strict. any big emotions were met with anger and annoyance rather than love and care. she learned to bottle things up at a very young age. it was just easier. still, it was very difficult for her. she has always been very sensitive, and all she’s ever wanted is to please her parents.

one of her favorite things to do with her nannies was to just be outside. whether it was going for walks or playing at the park, winnie loved every minute of it. she loved seeing the bugs, the animals, and the plants. one thing she always adored were flowers.

she would always want to pick flowers for her mom. her small little bouquets always got her a “how sweet” and a head pat, and winnie would be on cloud nine for hours.

with her love for nature, it’s no surprise that biology and science quickly became her favorite subject. she loved the butterfly unit and watching caterpillars build their cocoons and eventually hatch.

she has always been a bit of a bookworm, and that made it all the easier to be shy. she could easily hide behind her books and not have to talk to other kids. which was for the best, anyway. her parents were very particular about who she could be friends with, so it was best for her to not try to make her own.

which, came as a bit of a blessing as she grew through puberty. all the sleepovers she was forced to attend were good practice for how to talk about boys. learning which ones were considered cute, discovering how you'd want one to treat you... it was just stuff winnie had never thought about. what was there to notice about boys when girls were simply... prettier to look at ?

but, she rationalized her thoughts by saying she was simply appreciative of those around her. how could the trophy daughter of conservative lawyers have feelings for other girls ?

and, once again, it's easier for winnie to be alone. your eyes can't linger too long if there's no one there to look at

however, everything changes when she goes to college and meets veronica lee. they met during orientation, and somehow, winnie just knew she was safe around the other.

their relationship only grew as time went on. they'd connected on multiple levels-- growing up with wealth, but not fitting the role your family wants you to play. it didn't take long for the two of them to become attached at the hip, never seeing one without the other.

until one night, the two came stumbling back to ronnie's dorm after a party ( something only ronnie could convince winnie to go to ). they'd had plenty of sleepovers, had probably shared a bed about a hundred times at this point. but, something within winnie just snapped. she'd lost all her inhibitions and couldn't think outside of that room. not of her role, not of her parents, not of their expectations. it was just winnie and ronnie.

the kiss had changed everything. winnie hadn't expected to feel as much as she did, and she wasn't expecting ronnie to be the one to pull away. that gesture was one that brought reality crashing down. it wasn't right-- this wasn't who winona morris was.

after that, winnie had done all she could to avoid ronnie and her own feelings. she couldn't get in an argument with her parents at the age of twenty. she knew she'd lose. she had nothing to fall back on.

losing ronnie was hard, and winnie soon became a shell of who she was with veronica. empty, hollow, lifeless. she knew college was for experiences, and she had been excited for them. now, she just wanted to do as little as possible and ensure she left with a degree.

and that she did. with a business degree ( something that had disappointed her parents greatly, but even they knew she'd be a terrible lawyer ) in hand, winnie knew exactly what she wanted to do with her life. but first, she wanted to get some practice in. she worked as a florist at a few different shops up until she was twenty-five.

everything kind of happened at twenty-five. she'd hit an emotional wall. she was exhausted hiding the person she was, even from herself. she'd been smart enough to work and save her money as she did, because she pretty much went off the grid for three months. she was constantly crying, having anxiety attacks, and she could barely get out of bed. she hated herself and she just wanted to be free.

she's twenty-five when she comes out to her family. as bisexual, because it's easier to stomach and possibly more acceptable. her brother welcomes her with open arms, her parents, not so much. they can't cut her off entirely, seeing as she's still one of their trophies. she appears in family christmas photos, but their communication pretty much ceases to exist. no more financial help, and no more love ( not that there was much to begin with ).

moving to palmview was a fresh start. she'd shed her old self and was ready to welcome the new winona. WINNIE. a name her parents had refused to call her.

she settles herself down, still has some money saved ( and has some help from her brother ) and works to open fleurist. after a year of buying, meeting, planning, and decorating, winnie was pleased to finally be able top open up her own flower shop and to work as a florist.

everything was finally on her terms, and she couldn't have felt more alive.

CONNECTIONS:

uhhhh honestly like .... real friends. people who know winnie and love her <3

failed dates lolllllll my girl has been ever so slowly trying to get out there but .... life is hard. this can be men and women because she's definitely a lesbian but hasn't figured that out yet

loyal customers <3 please and thank uuuuuuu

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[ssplague]

Second Snippet

I noticed a fair amount of attention on my “Wolf Man Bakugou” post, so here ya go 😉 If it seems to read a bit WEIRD, this particular story was originally planned to be a long thirst/ possible drabble, but as I mentioned in my previous post I have this Chronic turn a Short Story into a series disorder 😷🤒 This is more than likely going to end up being a ridiculously long one shot, or possibly two part deal.

🐺❤️‍🔥👣

Waking up, a cocoon of unusual warmth surrounds you; A heavy arm lays across your waist, deep breaths blow against your scalp, someone’s body is spooning you from behind. Thinking the worst, you stay silent, abruptly attempting to scramble forward and far away from this stranger. Unfortunately a loud yelp echoed throughout the cavern as you trip over a chain that connects to what has to be a collar around your neck. You immediately start hyperventilating, Where am I?! Who took me from the cabin?! “Finally up? About damn time” The deep raspy voice comes from beneath the blanket you had thrown off. A shirtless man sits up, his messy ash blonde hair sticks up in all directions, but you can just barely make out two large ears of the same color hidden beneath it. “Who are you? Where am I? Let me go!” You snap at him, yanking hard on the chain, eyes following the length of it when it doesn’t give a single inch. A heavy stone spike is nailed through the chain links, keeping it (& you) pinned to the stone floor.

“I’m Katsuki, future leader of the Bakugou Clan and a direct descendant of the very first werewolf…This is my new den, and I brought you here to claim you as my own” he puffs out his chest “I’ve watched you every day for almost a month, and have decided you will become my mate, welcome home pretty human”.

“No this isn’t right, that can’t be…I was finally happy with my life in the village…I want to go back, please let me go back” you began to sob working yourself into hysterics “I was finally free!”. “You’re safe here with me, I’ll always protect you, you’ll want for nothing I promise you…” Katsuki offers, immediately bristling when he gets no response. You just continue crying into your hands, shivering as you realize the clothes you had on the night before were gone. You sat on the cold stone floor in only your under garments. A familar numbness spreads throughout your body at the realization that not only has your newly acquired freedom been snatched away, but you were going to be subjected to the will of someone new, and any minute now you’ll be violated…it’s happening again. You feel your body being lifted, and carried back to where you had woke up, “Get back in the nest before you catch cold, I don’t want you leaving this spot until I say so” the Wolfman growls as he goes back to spooning you, “Let’s rest, we’re both going to need it for the days ahead”. You feel his hand push your hair back to expose your neck, then he begins rubbing his wrist across the sensitive skin. The deep inhale he takes upon burying his face in your hair sends a chill down your spine.

A/N: I know it’s short, but I don’t want to give away too much of the story. I’ll be sharing a third snippet of another W.I.P later! What did you think?

[dulcisregnumdorm]

Terrence Von Schweetz

More info under the cut

Name: Terrence Von Schweetz

Age: 22

Gender: Transmasc

Sexuality: Gay

Pronouns: He/Him

Year: 3

Best Subject: History

Birthday: May 23rd

Twisted From: Taffyta Muttonfudge

Class: D (No 15)

Club: Equestrian

Height: 6’0

Hobby: Ice Skating,Racing,playing the guitar

Homeland:Glace Duchy

Likes: Flying Dislikes: Politics,his mother,his father,pageant shows

Unique Magic: Dulce Metamorphose (can turn any living being into candy)

VA:Kenji Nojima

Nicknames:crybaby,prince

Pet Peeves: His fangirls

Favorite Food: Strawberries

Least Favorite Food:Bugs

Talent(s): Modeling,playing the guitar

Zodiac:Gemini

Personality type: ESTJ-T (Executive)

Personality: Terrence is a young man that on paper (and around the important people he would have to kiss up to) would be defined as “prince-like”. With a repertoire of natural skills the upper class would consider common Terrence fits the standard any person of wealth would want their child to mold. 

Or would if it wasn’t for Terrence’s general bratty attitude towards his “fans” and actual sensitive nature. These persona’s act as shields in order to get by just existing in Twisted wonderland,not only as the first child of the Duke of the Glace Duchy but also as a person dehumanized by people who were supposed to protect him from harm.

Fun Facts:

Whenever he is bored Terrence would use one of his alt magicam accounts to troll his fangirls, this has carried on for 2 years.

Normally the ringleader in the dorm when someone outside of the dorm needs a good beatdown

 Whenever he has the chance terrence goes ice skating to clear his mind

Can actually drive very well, if he wanted he could give Temperence a good challenge

How does Terrence have two different lengths of hair? Magic

Despite his prince-like demenour Terrence gets the most feral when pissed

^fangs and mandibles out, Vincent having to hold him back

Likes the cybercore angel aesthetic

^every now and then he will dress up in that aesthetic

Terrence is known for coming up with the most creative insults known to man

Is known to be the one to cry most of the time in the group

^But because of this Terrence is the most mentally stable

Has played DnD one assuming it was going to be useless

^After that one game Terrence has now hosted 2 campaigns as a dungeon master

Is terrified of Vargas because one time in his first year Vargas flung Terrence into the air to get him to fly

Terrence is known for leaving cotton candy webbing in the rafters (they were attempts are making a cocoon)

Has the sharpest claws

Used to be childhood friends with Leona

[allertonhoe]

warming you up - rafe cameron (18+)

✻ baby it's cold outside ✻

summary: you boyfriend takes you away on a romantic winter getaway, but you didn't factor in your cabin's heater breaking, forcing the two of you to get creative in order to keep warm.

content warnings: original afab!reader, established relationship, use of petnames (baby), 18+ MDNI - smut, tit play, fingering, oral (f receiving), unprotected p in v, multiple orgasms, fluffy as hell but basically porn with barely any plot

length: 1.5k words

"I can't fucking believe there's no heat here." you huff as Rafe adds another log to the growing pile.

It was a thoughtful gesture, a surprise weekend getaway to Colorado from your boyfriend. In theory, a secluded ski chalet was incredibly romantic. But maybe not when two moody Southerners were stuck having to deal with the elements themselves. Sure, you packed coats and sweaters, but neither of you expected to not have any extra bearings in the cabin itself. Not too accustomed to these types of issues since you lived in a more humid climate.

A fire burned and lit up the entirety of the small dwelling, candles scattered around side tables and mantles to create any extra warmth. The three blanket cocoon you'd built for yourself not doing as much as you'd hoped, still shivering under all the layers. Rafe proceeded to invite himself into your little nook, a squeal leaving you when he grasped your hips, exposing you to his cold touch.

You went to push him away, not wanting to be subjected to his vexing after finally having gotten cozy. Not being too successful as he easily shifted you around so you were straddling his lap. Your knees resting on either side of him, the quilts now draped over your shoulders and covering the two of you. Trying to pry his frozen grip off once again, you trembled as he grazed your skin, his icy embrace contradicting your attempt at toastiness.

"Stop, your hands are cold!" you whine in protest, shooting him a melodramatic pout as if he hadn't been running around to appease you since arriving earlier.

"How else am I supposed to warm up, baby?" he feigns back in the same tone.

His large hands slid up your back, pulling you in fiercely for a kiss. The two of you just sitting and making out for a while, in no hurry knowing you had the entire holiday to enjoy each other's company. Rafe delicately laying you backwards on the couch, careful not to detach from your lips as he hovered over you.

Layers were lazily shed, two of the throws followed by your sweats until you were both only in your underwear. Forgetting about the miserable weather, now distracted and intoxicated by Rafe's unyielding lust for you. Your close proximity producing more heat than any of your other techniques so far.

He began pecking down your figure diligently, disappearing under the fleece and only leaving you with the sight of his moving head to hint at what he'd do next. None of this was unfamiliar between the two of you, but the anticipation mixed with your growing ache made it feel that much more thrilling.

His lips latched onto your nipple, an unsteady breath escaping you as he lapped at it, moving onto the other side and doing the same. Feeling him fixate on certain areas of your torso, leaving marks only he'd be able to appreciate later. The comforter dropping with him the lower he went, exposing your chest to the cool air.

There was no predicting his next advance or the degree of intensity, not expecting him to indulge you so quickly after his incessant teasing. His mouth connecting to the already damp fabric, only placing a chaste kiss on the sensitive area but managing to force another soft gasp from you. Unsure if it was even his finger or nose moving them out of his way. Rafe knowing exactly how to elicit the reaction he wanted out of you, igniting your senses like he had with the burning campfire nearby.

Your head rolled back as his lips met your core, tending to the sensitive area like he'd done with the top of your frame. Chills covering your exposed skin, surely caused by a combination of the frigid atmosphere and your building urgency. His speed wasn't too rushed, holding back slightly in order to keep you on edge. Adding two of his fingers without warning as his mouth continued its routine, drawing out moans from you without any difficulty.

He never had to work hard to evoke your pleasure, stimulating you expertly with his tongue, switching between flicking it vigorously and leaving long, deliberate strokes. Fumbling to grip his hair, tugging it lightly as you cradled the back of his head and chased your climax. Letting out a satisfied cry as euphoria washed over you, your hips moving with him as he worshipped you like he was a man starved.

You couldn't even catch your breath before he was crawling his way back up your form, bringing his lips back to yours with a sense of greed. Making sure that you could taste yourself, his tongue exploring your mouth like it was uncharted territory and sending you into a deeper haze.

He was flushed from hiding under the duvet, his feverish body aiding in defrosting you. Trailing your fingers down his torso to give him some similar relief, mindful of the hardened bulge digging into your leg. Rafe removing your hand instead and bringing it to the elastic band of his boxers.

"Just take 'em off," he instructs in between kisses.

"Are you sure?" you ensure, feeling guilty for not returning any favours.

"You gave me all this shit over having no heat," he reminds playfully, resting his forehead on yours, eyes blown out with desire as he looked into yours. "But you're questioning my methods?"

"I never said that," you retort smartly.

"Let me take care of you, yeah?" he reassures firmly, a statement he'd been repeating since you'd arrived.

Your fingers slipped under his waistband, helping push them off his hips as he shimmied out of the last item of clothing in your way. Only dragging himself through your wetness a few times before sinking back into you, giving you a few moments to adjust to him despite being more than familiar with each other. Exhaling shakily as you relaxed around his length, still incredibly sensitive.

He was unhurried with his motions, effortlessly picking up a steady rhythm instead of opting for the animalistic style you typically preferred. Burying himself into you, the slow pace making you feel every inch of him. Your walls fluttering around him, feeling his tip brush your g-spot every time he bottomed out. His concentrated features being overcast by the golden flame that sat just a few feet away as you watched him through half-lidded eyes.

"Fuck, baby," he grunts. "Feel so fucking good. My sweet girl."

It was like some deranged fantasy—as if some wholesome fairytale had become x-rated. Neither of you holding back your lust for the other, the intimate lodge cloaking you in a peculiar stillness that you were both happy to take advantage of. Half-expecting some lumberjack or magical dwarf to knock on the door and interrupt.

The two of you were completely in tune with each other's patterns and impulses, your movements like a synchronized routine even though they were obstructed by the blanket. His name slipping from your tongue in plea, like it was some ritualistic chant. He was the only thing on your mind, the only thing taking up your senses, the only thing you ultimately craved. All of him.

"Rafe, I..." you choke out, your boyfriend flashing you a faint smirk to affirm he understood your unfinished thought.

"I got you, baby." he coaxes. "Let go for me."

He held nothing back as he lost himself in his bliss, only adding to your own. Clutching his biceps as his hips snapped towards you, Rafe wrapping one of your legs around him to make sure he hit the best angles. Your arousal only heightening as he brought one of his digits back to your clit, shockwaves surging through your system from the added contact. With a few more sharp thrusts, he sent you over the brink as he hit his own, showering you with sweet nothings.

He laid across your chest as the two of you came down from your highs, brushing your fingers through his disheveled hair. Unable to help the whimper that left your throat when he pecked at one of your roused nipples, not letting you recompose entirely. Still maintaining the upper hand even though he was the one cuddling into you.

"So, was this your big plan?" you ask hoarsely. "Bringing me out to the middle of nowhere and making sure I'm all cold and defenseless so you could take advantage of me."

"Take advantage of you?" he echoes, making himself comfortable as he used your breasts as a pillow. "Don't pretend like that wasn't the least you've complained since we got here." he contends as you stared at each other shamelessly, knowing exactly what was in store for the remainder of your holiday.

note: i wrote this sometime last year off a prompt i found and figured i'd post it for december !! super short & quick, but also kinda romantic & cute rafe soo... i have another, more suggestive christmas-themed one on deck but get so critical over my own writing lol so let me know what you guys think/if you want any more winter-themed blurbs. my inbox is open!.

[dom-thebartender]

Biography

Dominik (Dom) DeMarc

Age: 28

Occupation: Bartender

Species: WereFox (Omega)

Dominik DeMarc, known as Dom, began his life in an environment of warmth and stability. Growing up in a picturesque town with his devoted parents, Dom’s childhood was filled with joy, adventure, and a deep sense of security. The DeMarcs were a close-knit family, and young Dom thrived under their loving care, cocooned in affection and protection.

This idyllic existence was abruptly shattered when Dom was just seven years old. A tragic accident claimed the lives of his parents, leaving him orphaned and profoundly affected. As an omega werefox, Dom was particularly sensitive to emotional distress, and the sudden loss of his family was a devastating blow. Placed into the foster system, he faced not only instability but also physical and emotional abuse. The neglect and mistreatment deepened his feelings of abandonment and isolation, leaving him with enduring scars.

Throughout his formative years, Dom felt compelled to hide his identity as a werefox. In a world where werecreatures often faced suspicion and prejudice, he feared that revealing his true nature would only exacerbate his difficulties. This secrecy added an additional layer of isolation and self-protection, as he struggled to navigate his complex identity while grappling with his traumatic experiences.

By his late teens, Dom sought to escape his relentless pain through drugs and alcohol. His addiction worsened, leading him into a cycle of homelessness and the harsh realities of street life. During this period, he was frequently subjected to disdain and cruelty, both from those who ignored him and those who exploited him. This harsh treatment reinforced his sense of mistrust and betrayal.

Determined to turn his life around, Dom entered a recovery program, marking a significant turning point in his journey. The path to recovery was challenging, involving extensive counseling, support groups, and intense personal effort. Dom’s resilience and inner strength guided him through this difficult period, helping him regain stability and self-worth.

Seeking a fresh start and a place where he could be accepted, Dom moved to New Haven, a city known for its vibrant community of werecreatures. This new beginning offered him the chance to leave behind painful memories and find a supportive environment where he could rebuild his life. Now 28, Dom works as a bartender in a popular New Haven bar. His sassy, bratty demeanor serves as a protective façade, a defense mechanism developed to shield his more vulnerable self. His sharp wit and playful banter help him maintain a barrier against further emotional harm.

Dom's experiences have left him with a deep-seated mistrust of the world outside of New Haven. The harsh treatment he received in foster care and while homeless has fostered a general disdain for humanity, fueling his preference for the accepting and understanding community of werecreatures in New Haven. Although he remains guarded, his difficult past has also given him a profound empathy for others who struggle. He often extends support and understanding to patrons facing their own challenges, reflecting his resilience and capacity for compassion.

[denimbex1986]

'Alone in his apartment, Adam (terrific Andrew Scott, seen in the series Fleabag ) tries to write a new script, but he seems lost in his thoughts. Returning to the neighborhood of his childhood, in the suburbs of London, he is assailed by images and memories. Inside his family home, he sees the silhouettes of his parents, too happy to see him again. Their interior and clothing seem frozen in the 1980s.

In the evening, a stranger knocks on Adam's door. Harry (Paul Mescal, revealed in the magnificent series Normal People and rediscovered in the film Aftersun ) is the only other inhabitant of this building in central London. He would like to invite him for a drink, but his too direct approach displeases Adam.

Throughout his trips back and forth to his childhood home, Adam shares his memories and impressions with his parents (magnificent Claire Foy, seen in the series The Crown , and Jamie Bell, from Billy Elliot ) who are now the same age than him. In front of them, Adam seems to have remained the 12 year old kid they always knew. But for him, these conversations are an opportunity to tell them everything he was unable to share with them. To tell them who he is and what he has become. These trio conversations, seemingly perfectly ordinary, result in appeasement and a form of tranquility for this solitary adult.

Passionate about romantic relationships, Andrew Haigh ( 45 years old ) films with great delicacy the signs of love and family tenderness, creating a tangible and soft cocoon for these trio conversations. At the same time, the beginnings of a queer romance are taking shape that could turn Adam's life upside down.

To weave this story, the British filmmaker was inspired by his own experiences, very freely adapting the novel Presences of a Summer (1987) by the Japanese author Taichi Yamada, who died in 2003 . He magnifies his subject through an aerial and padded photograph where superimposed faces and numerous childhood images float, illuminated by the tenderness and warmth of memories.

Quest for memories and sensations

At the same time, he films the way in which the two “neighbors” manage to break the ice. Offering the very beautiful impressions of a budding relationship, with the embarrassment and awkwardness that accompany it, and a soundtrack that carries many memories of the 80s and 90s.

In small touches, with great economy of means, but also infinite sensitivity, the filmmaker, who worked for a long time alongside Ridley Scott, composes a double story of love and consolation, a story of mourning and melancholy too. His quest for memories and vanished sensations raises the question of Adam's place among the living.

★★★  '

[corvidamned]

Ho ho ho! I'm so terribly sorry for being late these last few days, I've had my hands rather tied. Now, where were we? I come with many presents. NAUGHTY -> Is there someone that Kira utterly loathes? Would love for nothing more than to do away with that person? If the opportunity was presented, to erase someone within the Fog from that plane of existence, would he?

NICE -> When did she first become aware of the blood web? What is her favorite thing that she loves to find within the Entity's random catalog?

NAUGHTY -> Do they believe that there's a way out of this mess? That there is a possibility to escape from the Entity's clutches? If there was, would she take it, leaving everything and everyone behind for freedom?

As always, meeeeeeerry Christmas! Your SECRET secret Santa :)

First Question is going to be under the cut for the non-graphic but still sensitive subject matter. Two! First sleep following Trial One. The wiki describes it as a nexus that prevents dreamless sleep. In my headcanon, there is an actual giant web constructed in a cave or between very old trees. Every item is a cocoon in reach. And if you take something, you always cut yourself on branches or debris that remain in the shell of the cocoon, staining the webs red. It hardly matters how injured you get in this nexus, as long as you can pay the equal price for what the item is worth. When Kira wakes, she'd be the amount of injured or uninjured she was at the end of the previous trial, and her body would be whole again once she starts fresh for the next trial. As she becomes a more experienced survivor, the gathering of items process comes to her when she's awake, appearing to her as found items she can forage for in the forest, and items in the vending machine in RPD she can press a button for.

Items Kira is most interested in are Medkits of any kind. Add-ons most particularly coveted would be the anti-haemorrhagic syringe, stypic agent, abdominal dressing, gauze roll, needle & thread, medical scissors, bandages, and butterfly tape. When miraculously not available, the brand new part for Toolboxes, the black silk cord for Maps, the blood amber and the unique wedding ring for the Key are very much appreciated. Kira hoards Flashlights, rarely ever ever using them. Offerings that she snags immediately and uses often are Bog Laurels, Shiny Coins, and Tarnished Coins. Three! At heart, she always has that spark of hope she will leave this place. It would take a lot of being beaten down to no longer believe. The harsh words of a jaded friend or lover, followed by a long absence that induces a spiral into becoming obsessive and malformed. The betrayal of other survivors, if her reputation as a vampire consumes the masses to treat her as contagious or like a ticking time bomb, bound to start killing. Kira's resolve under normal circumstances, the bloodiest and most hopeless of trials, is usually steel to the end, whether it is a flawless escape or a horrifying mori.

Kira keeps this very close to her chest, but she would jump through a portal or let a merciful fog consume her even if it only takes one. She would hope someone dear to her would be able to follow, or use her notes and clues left behind to which tomes one ought to look for to be able to follow. But come daylight, under these hellish circumstances, Kira is of the mindset she should put her oxygen mask on first before helping others. Even if that means the possibility of never seeing the people she's met again. It's why I have this au arc. no exit where someone she knows is so pissed off, they make a pact to see that she comes back and is stuck here with the rest of them

I think Kira is in the majority with most people wanting the dream demon, the Nightmare, to not be a part of the roster. It's not the dreamscape. It's a challenge as difficult as facing the Pig. It's his origin, that one can easily deduce with the presence of an elementary school in Springwood, that's repulsive. He wasn't a indiscriminate killer, or a soldier that committed war crimes on behalf of a government or private corporation, or child himself. He was a older man who took advantage of his position as groundskeeper and abused children, marked them, and killed them. And those that got away until teenager years or adulthood were slowly hunted down until there were nearly none left and the myth had to be retold by future generations in order for his spirit to have form and influence.

I'm a fan of the Freddy films, and I can consume fucked up content in healthy amounts. My fictional character has fictional standards of who should live or die an ugly death. Kira, who is a csa survivor, would personally want to stab Freddy thirty-six times in the face, and then pray the Entity would wipe her memory of the incident, and send him back to the real world, where he can possess actor R/obert En/glund into doing one more script to feed the ancient entity that constantly needs its story to be told in safe media like movies in order for it to be trapped forever.

[subpar-ghoulfriend]

Live In Nanny Pt 2

Villain!All Might x Reader

All Might raising baby Deku but is in desperate need of a nanny (Pt 2). The morning after and basically wayyyy to long so the smut is gonna have to be in pt 3. (word count: a little over 2k)

pt 1 here

TW: Yandere themes, day after dub con, reader is held against their will

You were sore. Your hips, wrists, back, pussy, everything ached. A silky sheet was the only thing covering your bare form. You could feel that you were alone in bed, Toshi's bulkiness was no longer weighing down the mattress. It must be mid morning because light was streaming through the curtains. Maybe if you remained still you could absorb into the mattress. Not only because of your tender body, but because you would prefer to never see your boss again. But speak of the devil. "Are we staying in bed all day?" You groaned. Hating how he worded his question. We. It was condescending, patronizing, and somehow filled you with butterflies. Something was placed on the bed, definitely not heavy enough to be Toshi. And then you realized, not something but a tiny someone. Baby Izuku crawled over to you, babbling, and tapped your sore shoulder. "Morning, Zuzu," You mumbled. Your joints crackled to life and you tightened the covers so you could face the little one. Behind him the clock read 11:00 am. "I need to get dressed." The villain cocked his head, "I tossed your clothes in the laundry do you want me to go get something from your closet?" No, you didn't want him running through your belongings. He would probably make a mess. "Just give me one of your shirts." That provided you enough modesty to get to your room and you were surprised the menace didn't follow. You scrubbed your body raw under the shower, subconsciously punishing yourself for taking pleasure from the night before. You were frustrated. Clean and covered in giant sweat pants and a hoodie you stormed into the living room where Toshi sat watching izuku entertain himself. "I quit." There was a pause. You tried not to look at the child. He would sway your resolve. This didn't have anything to do with him, it was between you and his father. "Alright." Oh. He wasn't going to challenge you? Figures, the man got what he wanted from you. You turned on your heels and rushed back to your room. You didn't own much so it wasn't hard to shove your belongings back into the suitcase. Opening your bedside drawer you froze. Your keys and phone were missing. This was their spot. The dedicated key-and-phone drawer. You check the room once, twice, then Izuku's room, the playroom, the kitchen. "Where are my keys?" You hissed, to hell with the phone you could buy a replacement. "Why would you need those," His voice was taunting. You felt your fists ball up and your nails dug into your palms. You stomped your foot like a frustrated child. "Because I'm leaving, I quit, now give me my keys." "I agreed you can quit, if that's what makes you feel better. I didn't say anything about leaving." The tension could be cut with a knife. He wasn't speaking or moving, he was eerily looming. In the other room Izuku was getting fussy. It knotted your stomach not going to check on him, but you kept your eyes on the villain. Toshinori was the first one to move, he went to check on his son. Clearly you weren't a threat. You could do without the keys, even sacrifice your suitcase. You made it all the way to the front door where you expected him to be, but he wasn't. He was with Izuku. With a twist at the knob the door didn't budge. You tried once more before angrily shaking the door. All Might called for you, "I told you that you aren't leaving. It's a two way security system but feel free to keep trying." When did he install this? You didn't see anything obvious like a box or camera indicating a security system. You could've thrown a fit or tried to break open the window but you had a feeling you wouldn't make it far. "What are you getting at?" You asked, rejoining the father-son duo. "Nothing aside from what we discussed last night in bed," he was making your cheeks burn red. "Making sure we stay a happy family." By the tone of his voice you knew there was no room for discussion. He didn't chastise you for slamming the door your room. He didn't pester you through out the day. He didn't even open your door to tell you he made dinner. He came by later to tell you (through the door) that he left you a plate in case you get hungry. By midnight you were. You tip toed down the hall, peeking into to the nursery to see Izuku fast asleep. You scarfed down the food before crawling back to bed. --- The next day you shuffled out of bed and into Izuku's room where you picked up the quiet but awake baby. You were gentle as you combed through his green curls with your fingers. He was still warm the way babies gets when they sleep. Holding him soothed you. Toshi melted when he saw you two curled up on the couch. He didn't want to ruin the mood so he stayed out of your line of sight for a few more minutes. Finally he entered the threshold of the room, "I'm heading out for the day but I won't be out late." You could've ignored him, but Izuku's grubbing hands were grabbing for his daddy. You had been defeated by the toddler. You weren't a monster. You moved toward your now ex-employer so he could tell his son goodbye. Goodbye before he goes off to commit atrocities. Toshi kissed the child’s chubby cheeks without removing him from your arms. He was too close for comfort. You took an awkward half step back before his huge hand caught your hair. With a tug, your chin jutted forward and he pressed his lips to yours. "Zuku, keep an eye on mommy," Chuckling as he stepped out the front door. Your mind was fuzzy for a moment before looked down at the boy on your hip who was giggling and clapping his hands together. --- The jovial villain was focused at work. He was on edge, quiet and irritable. Eager to return home and help you with his son. All Might wasn't delusional — well at least not entirely. He anticipated that this would be a rough time for you, but you were a good girl, you would adjust.

When he placed that ad to scout for someone to watch Izuku he didn't plan for this. But you were so perfect. He ached for you in a way he never hurt before. Had you been anyone else he would've killed you when you found out his villainous ways. But no, he could never bring himself to harm you. God, you even took the news in stride. Yeah, you weren't thrilled and may have walked out of their lives if he hadn't stopped you; but you weren't trashing his house or treating Izuku any differently.

And you were so pretty underneath him, whimpering while you took his length, your nails digging into the man's shoulders when he released into you. You slept like a rock afterwards, rolling unconsciously into him. Your body sought his comfort, knowing you were safe with him. He just needed to give you time to adjust.

--- It didn't take long for you to stop leaving the room any time he entered. And soon you were back to your normal routine of caring for the child and keeping up with the house. You resumed playing around with Izuku and began reading a ton of books to the boy. You told Toshi that Izuku could even pick which books he wanted you to read. It was nice that you were talking to him again, sometimes making jabs at his life choices and always kept a distance between yourself and him. Izuku was becoming quite the talker, well the babbler because he hasn't said his first word yet. He was figuring it out though. He knew he could say 'Ap-ap' for apple or to get picked up. You were sure he would say his first word any day. --- The three of you were in the living room when it happened. Izuku was watching some baby show, the first "lesson" was colors and the little one did his best to make nonsensical noises. The next subject was family members. Siblings, sister, brother. Parents. Mom, mommy, mama. Dad, daddy, papa. Grandma, grandpa. Aunt, auntie. Uncle. Over and over again until the show was done. Toshi looked at the izuku who was wearing the face of a thinker. He looked at his dad, the little one was trying to get something of importance out. You both cheered for him once he finally got out the word "papa." It was cute to see the man beam with pride, even though he was a villain. The butterflies were breaking out of their cocoons again. --- Toshi didn't get much alone time with his son and he liked it that way. That meant you were with them. But when he did get time with son he worked on teaching the boy that you were the mommy. Mama. And Izuku would try to repeat but hadn’t quite got it. --- You were struggling to maintain your composure in between watching the news and cooking dinner. All Might was robbing a bank. There were hostages. You recognized the location immediately as a bank you passed almost daily before working for Toshinori. Did you know anyone inside? A small part of you worried for the man, probably because you were thinking of him as Izuku's father rather than a villain. You shut the TV off when you heard Izuku start to wake from his nap.

That night you couldn't help but notice a slice on his arm; it was superficial, not even bleeding but enough to draw out the question: Why do you do it? It's easy, he shrugged. All Might never initiated an attack unprovoked nor directed his actions towards helpless civilians. He stole, dabbled in the black market, and made sure everyone knew not to mess with him or anyone in his circle.

You just couldn't understand. When Zuku gets older he will ask questions. All little boys idolize their dads. What if someone tried to hurt the boy? 

The two of you were whisper yelling with each other. You more so than Toshi but he was still running low on patience; it had been a long day, after all. Izuku was picking up on the changing atmosphere, watching you both through furrowed brows, the quiver in his lip worsening. You stopped when you heard the whimpering begin. He was a sensitive child. Maybe you just needed to sleep. Toshi picked up the baby, bouncing Zuku in the way that always prevented tantrums and wails. He kept babbling and you could tell he was doing his best not to cry. You started to head towards your room when a cry broke out for 'mama.' This time it wasn't Toshi “putting you in your place”. This time it was Izuku.

"It's okay, Zuzu," Toshi soothed. "Mommy just needs a minute."

The crushing realization of just how trapped you were knocked the wind out of you. You couldn't leave the house. Toshi was always being too kind and patient. Somehow he managed to teach Izuku that you were his mommy. The most infamous villain had ensnared you and no matter what he wasn’t letting go. You would never be able to convince him to leave you alone and you'd never be able to leave Izuku.

You were tired of stubbornly holding out. Pathetic tears cascaded down your face, gentle and oddly relieving. Izuku practically leapt into your arms. The tot clung to you and his crying calmed down. you turned away, not able to look at the man.

"Are you going to think the worst of me forever?" Toshinori whispered. Maybe? Probably not. It was hard to tell. You didn't want to.

He continued, "I'm a good father, I would never let anyone hurt Izuku. Or you. Sure I don't have a lot of redeeming qualities but there are some."

You were tired of being stuck inside. It wasn't good for Izuku either. You wouldn't admit it but you weren't so sure you would abandon them even if given the chance. You were tired of trying to hate the man behind you. Tired of pretending you didn't fantasize about that night when you were alone in bed. Toshi moved right behind you and you relaxed against his huge chest. He was surprised and hesitant to move in case he frightened you to your senses. He couldn't just stand there though, that would be weird. Two thick arms wrapped around waist. "Tomorrow I wanna take Izuku to the park," You whispered. Toshi was equally defeated.

"Okay."

---

After putting Izuku to bed you made your way down the hall. The shower in Toshinori's bathroom was running. That was fine. You needed a moment to collect your thoughts. If this was going to work without you feeling like a hostage he was going to have to be open to loosing the reigns. 

He was surprised to see you in his room when he exited the bathroom in nothing more than a pair of sweatpants. 

"More fighting?" He cocked an eyebrow. 

You shook your head, "I hate All Might, just as much as I hate every other villain. But when you come home I don't see All Might, I just see Toshinori, Izuku's dad. That's the man I care about and no matter how much I fight it I can't stop caring."

It was hard to keep eye contact with him but you continued, "I want to be with you and Izuku, not with All Might. And I want to be here on my own accord. I want to be able to go out with Izuku and with you. Can't we just try that?" 

You didn't come in here to berate him again? Or to demand to leave? His heart softened as he realized that the person he wanted, wanted him back. You were willing to remain in their lives. 

"I can try that." 

Toshi trained his eyes on your body, fighting every instinct to close the space between. But you moved first, gingerly placing your hand on his shoulder to steady yourself as you straddled his lap.

"Can I sleep in here tonight? I want you to hold me," You whispered.

He nodded and rested his forehead against the crook of your neck. "Is that all you want from me tonight?"

[i-did-not-mean-to]

Sorry if this is a bit too specific: legolas marries the readers on the request of his father and a lord. Reader thinks it's ok .. they can work it out, but decades pass and they have never been intimate and watches the lingering glances he has towards tauriel. But she keeps trying to get his attention, but when legolas decided to run after tauriel during the DOS she runs away leaving a letter and wedding ring behind. Legolas admits to Tauriel he loved her cause of everything she had done for him after BOTFA, but tauriel is absolutely confused saying that was never her. Legolas horrified coming to realise it was all the reader's doing, he tries deny it first but out of shock and thranduil almost shouts at him to open his eyes and see the truth. So when legolas returns and sees the letter and ring left behind, he sets out to find her again 🤔 and does he? Fluff ending? Up to you, because i marvel at how you write and bring a story to a close .. that is not heavy on the mind.

- Thank you and sorry for being very specific. Change it along if it easier for yourself. You are the writer and I'm your simple requester with an idea too big and a writing too rough and small 🤪

Dear anon, this was indeed very specific...

So, to keep the suspense up, I'll do this in two parts :D

Vows - Part I

Words: 1,1 k

Warning: Marital problems, pain, hint at infidelity (emotional)

The news of your impending betrothal had come one sunny morning and – obedient to a fault – you didn’t even think it necessary to agree explicitly.

It was, after all, a great honour to be married to the prince of the woodland realm – a young Elf so charming and handsome that many a maiden would have killed to be in your shoes – according to the express wishes of both the king and your eminent father.

The fact that you did not know Legolas or had ever spoken to him beyond the courteous exchanges that were both usual and expected in your circles did not dissuade you from believing that everything would work out fine.

You were – in a word – full of a faith that bordered on naïveté; while you had spent your youth in the protective cocoon of your parents’ love, Legolas had been raised to be a warrior and a royal, but you were convinced that you’d find common ground eventually.

Your wedding was a very formal affair – much to your disappointment – and you silently bemoaned the impossibility to find a single quiet moment to get to know your betrothed a little better.

At all times, there was some kinsman, subject, or friend interrupting and pulling away your newly minted husband to drink with them or exchange news pertaining to subjects hardly meant for the sensitive ears of a porcelain court doll.

It hurt you to admit it, but you felt utterly and miserably lonely at your own wedding and still, you had faith in your marriage.

You had been born and bred to be a wife; you knew that you could be a good one and Legolas struck you as a gentle soul you could even grow to care for.

That night, and every night after though, he would refrain from joining you in your marital chamber. You knew not whence he left until – months later – you followed him discreetly and found out that he would sit in a tree until morning light.

No doubt, this was hardly restful!

The years crept by slowly; you grew used to that presence at your side that was so much like the sun and the moon: ever there and yet impossible to touch.

Your husband turned out to be mild and very kind; he would make pleasant conversation with you at banquets and formal dinners, but he never actively sought out your presence when you were alone – reading or watching the stars – in your private quarters.

Moreover, you were not blind to the lingering looks he would lavish on that red-haired Elven guard – Tauriel – and you couldn’t help the incessant, voracious growth of the grapevines of envy and jealousy that slowly choked the life out of your heart.

Legolas knew that he was doing you wrong.

At first, he had resented the meddlesome attitude of his father upon learning that a bride – a total stranger – had been selected for him and the fact that you had meekly agreed to that devious plot did not inspire great trust in him either.

He was aware of his social standing of course and he was afraid that it had merely been his title and not his person that had swayed a young lady of the court to accept the proposal made in his name and without his knowledge.

Upon seeing you though, he had to admit that you were indeed of a rare beauty, but your obedient, gentle demeanour still rubbed him the wrong way; he was relatively young and he desired to challenge and to be challenged in turn.

His heart had long been set on his friend – feisty, courageous, outrageous Tauriel – who made him feel as if he – as a person independently of his name and standing – had some inherent value.

Nonetheless, he could not deny that he felt guilty about having given his word – and his hand – in matrimony to a lady only to turn around and neglect her.

You acted so much like a merely decorative thing, sitting around like a perfect life-sized doll, that he found it a little too easy to discard you and pursue his own interests selfishly.

It was not even as if he didn’t like you; on the contrary, you were a great conversationalist and – being warm-hearted and kind – he did not doubt for a single second that you would be a great princess and – in time – maybe even queen to the realm.

Mindful of the safety and well-being of the subjects, you often spoke about concerns that sounded painfully dull to him.

How disappointed Thranduil had to be in him, Legolas thought, for his father had chosen a good match for the part of him that was prince and son to him. It followed – quite naturally – that, if you were not a good match for him as a person, it was inevitably due to the inferiority of said character.

Ultimately, Legolas ended up avoiding you because looking at you filled him with feelings of dread and guilt; he knew that he was running away from his own responsibilities and future by choosing to spend so much time with Tauriel rather than with his own wife, but he couldn’t help himself.

The burdens imposed upon him threatened to crush him and he was unsure if sharing his doubts with you would not lead to either even more weight being piled on his shoulders or – which would be far worse – to you being ground to a pulp as well.

You sat and suffered, in silence, in private, in vain.

Your pain was like a violent storm that never caused so much as a single ripple on the smooth surface of the lake that was your complexion.

Raised to be a lady, you watched your husband stray in mind and heart, seeking the company and solace of another while you wilted like a flower deprived of sunlight in your deserted chambers.

What did Tauriel have that you lacked?

You had wondered about that so much that the insidious, poisonous thoughts had left grooves in your soul like the deep gouges etched into the skin of the survivor of a warg attack.

She was impertinent and tempestuous, things you had been told and taught never to be, and it baffled you as much as it insulted you to see how bitterly you had been betrayed by your upbringing.

Had you been cultivated like a merely decorative plant? Had they – your parents, your tutors, your companions – known that you’d be pushed aside for a creature who had not had their wings clipped and their claws ripped out prematurely?

For years upon years, you had toiled and tried to be a good and worthy wife to Legolas, but he had never heeded you beyond the niceties that you had shared even before being betrothed.

In the end, your vow had been a hollow one for – no matter how well you performed all the tasks and tricks learned during arduous years of study – he was no closer to you now than he had been in that time before anyone had even thought of matrimony.

I hope you liked this, stay tuned for Part II (if there's any interest for that of course :) )

[kiamescribbles]

Got Bored, Decided to introduce y'all to my BNHA Oc.

School Uniform! (Antennae 'down')

Aizawa Kiame

Only daughter of pro-hero Aizawa Shouta; aka. Eraserhead. Mother died in labor and Dad-zawa is a platonic yandere who can and will threaten others to stay away from his daughter.

Was born with obvious Quirk (Moth Wings + Antennae) and at around 5-6 years old her less obvious abilities started showing up.

Abilities;

- Flight (unless it is raining or snowing in which case it becomes far more difficult for her to fly).

- Extra sensitive to chemical changes in the air (antennae pick up chemical differences and subtle air movements, making it easy to navigate in the dark/zero-light conditions, also dampened by rain).

- Powder; moth wings produce a very fine dust-like powder. The powder from her wings can take on different qualities, ie. Paralysis powder, sleep powder, poison powder, aphrodisiac powder, hallucinogenic powder,

- Regrowth; moth wings are fragile as are antennae, her wings are semi-strong and can bend/crumple/be tugged on without damage, but they can still rip, tear, freeze, ect but will regrow if given enough time.

- Cocooning; intensive recovery from injuries or fights, usually in case of completely removed or damaged wing. Cocoons in silk-string and has an expedited healing effect. Can also cocoon others, but it is a long process, so subject must be willing participant or unconscious. Can only do a full-body cocoon.

Sensitivities;

- Bright light is very distracting and can cause a trance-like state. (Moths do like light a lot)

- Nocturnal habits due to the nocturnal nature of moths and father.

- Intense smells (ie. Chemical presence) can cause distraction or disorientation.

- Extreme sweet-tooth, moths like nectar and all sorts of sugary substances, has a habit of binge eating sweets.

- Poor eyesight, when you have antennae that pick up on things around you, there is little need for eyesight. As a human, however, eyesight is important. Practically blind without glasses on.

- Water. Water is hard to swim in when you have wings that weigh you down once they get waterlogged. Rain makes it harder to fly, harder to sense chemical change, and near impossible to make powder in. Snow is powdery and has different impact as it isn't too hard to fly in- just freezes the wing tips off- chemicals are easier to pick up when not actively snowing but snowy in general, easy to make powder.

- Fragile wings; they can rip or tear easily and can freeze or burn quickly. They still have feeling so they do hurt when they are injured despite the regrowth capabilities. Very sensitive to touch.

Personality; Tired. Always tired and usually has a shorter temper as a result. Didn't want to be a hero but was targeted so often she may as well be a hero just to know how to protect herself. Doesn't like relying on her father- though she does adore him- or his pro-hero status for things or clout. Believes heroes should never be in it for the fame, just for helping others regardless of who. Has no interest in rank or fame, just wants to help however she can.

Hero Costume (antennae 'up')

Hero Name; Moth (as uninspired as her father)

Design Choices;

- No need to see when antennae see 10x better without even using sight. Bright lights are distracting to the eyes so eyes are covered to prevent such distractions.

- Hair tied up and back to prevent it from getting in the way during a fight.

- Several flasks of collected powder from wings, each with different uses for more immediate and intense impact when needed.

- Skirt/Short combo so extra fabric doesn't get in the way but more concealing than spandex (Dad-zawa insisted on NO revealing costumes)

[glowinggator]

Cuddles - All Turtles

Request: Hi I really like you writes! keep up the good work, I was wondering if you could do a rottmnt cuddle Imagines? If that's fine?

Pairing: All Turtles! (Non-Poly) 

Content: Fluffy as FUCK. Brush your teeth after you read this, cause it’s sweet as hell. 

Raphael: 

He loves to cuddle! But...he’s nervous. He doesn’t want to prick you with one of his spikes, or...worse. With his brothers, it’s different! They’ve got hard shells and plastrons, but you’re so... squishy! What if he hurts you? 

He gets so happy about casual touch. Putting you on his shoulders? Throwing his arm around your shoulders? Affectionate hair ruffle? He’s the physical embodiment of :) 

If you want full cuddles, though, you’re gonna have to be the one to initiate it the first few times. He’s just too nervous, otherwise. 

Rest your head on his plastron when you’re watching a movie and he’ll melt. 

Seeing how your arms maneuver around his spikes to embrace him, how gingerly you hold him...Maybe it’s possible. Maybe you two can cuddle without getting any boo boos.

He can’t really lay on his back because of his spikes. He’ll either get stuck that way when his spikes inevitably get embedded into the material, or he’ll shred up whatever he’s laying on.

(He’s banned from the beanbag chairs.)

He wants to be the little spoon so bad, but it’s physically impossible. He’s forever bound to big spoon duty. He’s okay with that, though. 

(One time you showed up wrapped in mattress foam and bubble wrap to try and be the big spoon. It's a very fond memory, even if you were padded too stiffly to actually hold him.) 

He likes to rest his head in your lap. Run your nails along his head or shell and he’ll be asleep in no time.

He won’t lay on your stomach or chest though. He really wants to, but he’s afraid he’ll crush you. There’s no debate with that topic, unfortunately. 

He’s such a good big spoon!! He’s so strong, and he cradles you like you’re the entire world. Because you are! 

He likes to rest one hand on your stomach and tangle his other hand with yours. It’s so cool to look down and see how his spikes cradle you. Almost as though you were a treasure encased in barbed wire, protected from the outside world. 

You always feel so safe when you cuddle. I mean, it’s hard not to when you’re cocooned in 1000lbs of muscle and spikes!

His hold is firm, but noticeably gentle. 

He runs pretty warm, compared to the rest of the turtles. Great in the winter time, not so great in the summer.  

He traces little doodles on the back of your hand. You can never tell what they are, though. And he won’t tell you what they are, if you ask.  

(They’re dogs.) 

He’s not coldblooded, due to the way he was mutated. As such, he doesn’t really have any issues regulating his body temperature. He does find himself seeking out heat sources, however! Donnie calls it a vestigial response. Raph absolutely does not care about no scientific names or explanations: he just knows that he likes to sit under the heat lamp in the morning.

Prepare to be his next heat lamp. 

If you come over in the mornings, prepare to be greeted with a very sleepy Raph the instant your feet hit the lair concrete.

He’s never on his phone when you cuddle.

He is a talker, though. He doesn’t quite whisper, but he definitely invokes the gentle voice. 

He falls asleep very quickly if he doesn’t keep himself talking. Your presence is just so calming to him, he can’t help it! 

He’s a very deep breather, and it’s really calming to listen to!

Unfortunately, he starts to snore about 15 minutes after he falls asleep. And he’s loud. 

You’ll get used to it, eventually. 

Donatello

He doesn’t sleep consistently, so full cuddle sessions are far and few between.

He read that fake rumor that Albert Einstein only slept for five hours a year: while it’s since been debunked, it’s stuck with him. He started training himself when he was little to power nap instead, and now it’s hard for him to get out of the habit.  

But..you’re a good motivator.

He’s a little nervous around the concept of cuddling, at first. He’s very touch-starved, and once you warm him up to the idea, it’ll be hard to pull him off you! But he’s incredibly nervous about it at first.

It’s...intimate, you know? He’s vulnerable, and that freaks him out.

His shell is super sensitive. Partially because it’s soft, but wearing his battle shell all the time has removed a lot of stimuli that would have made it less sensitive.

He reflexively rolls his shoulders when you run your hands along his exposed shell. At least, for the first few times. If you do it enough, it’ll quickly become a way for him to relax.

Likes to pull you to his chest and hold you like that. He usually has your head under his chin so he can scroll through his phone while you cuddle. He doesn’t move his arms much though, so it’s okay.

(He also likes it when you’re facing him so he can steal glances at you once you fall asleep. He thinks you’re even prettier when you’re completely relaxed.)

You’ll rarely see it for yourself, but his eyes get all soft while you’re cuddling together. The quietest, calmest smile graces his features when you’re in his arms.

However, you do notice how all the tension fades from his body, and how his breathing seems to slow down.

He’ll run his free hand along your back every now and then, pressing a quiet kiss to the top of your head.

He runs fairly cold, which is awesome in the summertime. He always lets you borrow his hoodies when you cuddle. If you ask nicely, he’ll let you keep ‘em, just so long as he has one or two in the closet.

His bed has super soft blankets, and they’re so nice to curl up in. You’ll probably stay there for a little while after he gets up, honestly.

He’s not a talker, surprisingly. Every now and then he’ll pull his arm back to show you some meme on his phone, but that’s about it. He’ll listen to you though! He actually really likes it when you mutter about whatever's on your mind while you cuddle.

King of “Uh huh,” “Wow,” “Mmhm,” and “Damn that’s crazy.”

He really is listening, though. He just likes to tease you a little bit.

His grip is either iron-tight or loose as hell.

On bad days he’ll curl up as the little spoon, and not even the gods could convince him to let go of you.

It takes him a while to warm up to the idea of being a little spoon. Both because his shell is hyper-sensitive, but it also kind of erodes that “bad boy” persona he’s got going on.

Once he’s more comfortable with it, he’s about 50/50 on it. He’s more likely to indulge himself on bad days, but it honestly just depends on his mood.

If you pull him away from work, you can bet that he’ll pull you to his chest while he’s sitting on the bed. He’ll lean forward to rest his chin on your shoulder as he explains his latest breakthrough. He shakes a little bit when he’s excited, and you can feel it as he holds you.  

He panics a little bit when he’s on his back, but he really likes it when you lay on his plastron, so...Chair cuddles!

He likes to have you in his lap while he works.

He also likes to kick his legs up onto your lap when watching TV. If you guys have the couch to yourselves, he’ll also lay all the way on your lap. If anyone sees you guys, or if anyone comments on it he’ll just hit ‘em with a very snarky quip.

“Okay, and? At least I actually have a partner :)”

You don’t know how he said “:)” outloud.

Leonardo 

He thinks he’s so smooth, but honestly? He’s such a dork.

He’s huge on touch. But cuddling? It’s a whole ‘nother ball game. He loves it a lot, but...he’s so vulnerable! It’s so intimate to him. He’s not adverse to it in the slightest; in fact, it’s the exact opposite! He’s super excited when the topic comes up.

You can tell that the idea of fully cuddling affects him more than he lets on, because he won’t stop talking when you bring up the subject for the first time. He rambles when he’s nervous.

(He talks with his hands a lot, and it’s really cute how he rambles and rubs the back of his neck.)

He’s actually a great cuddler, though.

Big spoon? Hell yeah. Little spoon? Awesome. Horrific entanglement of limbs that would put eldritch horrors to shame? Sweet! He’s just happy to be close to you.

He can go 50/50 on having his phone with him. If he does, he’s usually either watching memes with you or playing a mobile game.

(Kind of unrelated, but he was very excited about that weird, Subway Surfers revival that happened earlier this year. It was all he played for a while, and now you have the tune lodged in your brain forever.)

He’ll talk for a little while if he doesn’t have his phone, before you settle into a comfortable silence.

He’s either ranting about something shitty that happened that day, or shitposting. There’s no inbetween.

“If I shot someone from Texas while I was on the moon, would that fall under Texas’ jurisdiction or the moon’s?”

He also likes to trace little patterns on your hands, if he has access to them that day! You can usually tell what they are. Other times, it just seems like he’s finding an excuse to hold your hand. It’s really cute.

(If you ask him what he’s drawing, he’ll say he’s reading your palms before dropping a sweet little line about how he’s in your future.)

(He does NOT know how to read palms but it’s the thought that counts <3)

Not ashamed about cuddling in public. Hell, if you’re fine with it, he’s more than happy to cuddle during movie night. In fact, it’s kind of a source of pride for him!

He looks so cocky about it that Donatello has to make a physical effort to NOT hit him.

Please run your palms over his shell, he’ll melt.

If he’s the big spoon, squeeze his biceps. He might not say it out loud, but he’s melting internally. It sticks in his head for at least a few weeks afterwards. Ego Boost 100

If you’re ticklish, prepare yourself for tickles. He strikes without a pattern, and without warning. He doesn’t always do it, though. Maybe about one in ten times. He just likes to hear you laugh :)

He’s very nice to cuddle with overall. He’s the best cuddler in the lair, hands down.

Michelangelo

Literally the only one in the lair who isn’t embarrassed when you bring up the topic.

He’s been WAITING for this moment, actually.

Doesn’t care about whether he’s the big or little spoon.

He’s super talkative when he cuddles, it’s cute. He usually likes to spend this time talking about one another’s day. He’s a great listener too!

He’s always 100% engaged in what you have to say.

He has trouble settling down outside of his normal schedule, so it’s rare that he’ll fall asleep while cuddling.

If you’re in a position that gives his arms a lot of mobility, he’ll draw on you. Not just tracing patterns, but he’ll actually bring out his markers and draw on your arms, back, or just any exposed piece of skin.

He always manages to find the prettiest colors to compliment your skin tone. You never want to wash it off, honestly.

He HAS to keep himself busy with something, or else he’ll explode. At least, that’s how he describes it. If you try and get him to lay down and fall asleep...well, he’ll try! But he’ll be squirming the whole time.

It’s best to throw on a Jupiter Jim movie if you want him to stay still.

He likes to tangle his legs with yours while you cuddle. Whether he’s taller or shorter than you, he WILL find a way.

He’s the lightest out of all the turtles, so there’s a possibility of letting him (partially) lay on you without shattering your sternum! Congratulations!

(He’s around 525 lbs. He’s only half of what Raph weighs, but he still has to be careful about how he lays on you. It’s crazy to think that you’re so small compared to him.)

His hands are so cold, and he’ll absolutely use that to his advantage. If he gets bored, or if he just wants to make you laugh, he’ll grab your waist with his cold fucking hands. Hope you’re a northerner <3

He also likes to tickle you, way more than Leo.

Don’t try and tickle him though, he HATES it. He’s absolutely the type of person to just Scream if you try.

Like I said, he gets bored really quickly. He also just likes to make you laugh.

If you’re cuddling in bed though, like right before he falls asleep? It’s so nice.

He’ll still tangle his legs with yours, but he moves so much slower. He loves to let his hands lazily roam across your form as he pulls you closer to him, savoring the comfort and heat that you bring. If he talks, it’s in drowsy whispers that only you two can hear.

[reflectionsofneptune]

little things I associate with the Mercury signs.

Little dreamy, abstract things I associate with the Mercury signs in Astrology.

Aries Mercury

Authoritative. When I want something, I make it clear. Crystal clear. No beating around the bush. A forceful way of speaking. Don’t talk about it, be about it. Short sentences. A hint of arrogance. Competitive edge seeping through my words. What can I say, I like to be a winner? At all times. A raspy voice. Adopting a youthful charm when it suits me. Attuned to perceiving danger in my environment. Disliking an over-emphasis of niceties in conversation. Keeping it real. Exercising to clear the mind. Pep - talks. The rev of an engine. Pedal to the metal. Talking to me, I need you to bring your A Game and something new. Conversation needs to be stimulating. 

Taurus Mercury

Savouring. Words need to be savoured. Like beauty, they only get better with age. Listen carefully and hear what I stand for. Slowing down. Something about the handwriting. Cursive. An even tone. Words flow out of my mouth like maple syrup oozes down the height of a stack of fluffy, warm pancakes. Stubbornness. When am I ever wrong? Pictures, or it’s not real. Proof being recognised from what my base senses pick up. Inspiration from nature. A level-head. Choosing to see the beauty in my environment. For better or for worse. Don’t be fooled by my lack of conversation, I peep everything. 

Gemini Mercury

Riddles. I’m not going to tell you the answer but the curve of my lip might reveal itself when you’re getting close. Starting one conversation with one subject. Finishing the conversation with a completely different one. Playfulness. Humour as a tool of deflection. Quick texts. Leading conversations. Making a best friend in the supermarket. Another one, on the bus.  Seeing the duality of things in my environment. Information is like crack. I can’t get enough. Multiple tabs, open. Nervous energy. Fiddling. Mimicking your mannerisms if I like you, verbally ripping you apart if it tickles my fancy. Or not, I get distracted quite easily so you may be let off the hook.

Cancer Mercury

Introspective. Thinking about the past. Sometimes not finding my way back to the present. Emotions filtering through my words. Perceptions are protective. A vintage film, the introduction devoid of colour. An interest in knowing where one comes from, what comforts someone. Needing to cleanse myself of everybody’s emotional baggage. Again. Pathetic fallacy. Finishing your sentences. Promise its not on purpose. Wanting security from my environment. A psychological slant to conversations. A rich inner imagination. A diary, signed, sealed and under my pillow. Withdrawing into the cocoon of my thoughts when I feel threatened. 

Leo Mercury 

Commanding. A leadership position sounds good to me. Confidence in my thoughts. Words that can brighten up your life. Disney movies. Teasing conversations. Class clown. My thoughts are copyrighted. Bluffing. The curve a chest, puffed out to its maximum, makes. Talking loudly so I’m sure you hear me. Describing something in such detail, so you can feel as if you were there. Piping hot tea. Intellect and ego tied together.  Creativity expressed through speech. Seeing my immediate environment as a stage. Conversations in the mirror. The little grooves formed at the corner of the eyes when the smile is genuine. Blowing my own trumpet because if I don’t, who will?

Virgo Mercury

Organised. Seeing flaws in my environment. A to-do list, covered on both sides. Polite but not foolish. The spine of a book, crease free. Stepping back in conversation. The few creases that appear on the skin when a nose is wrinkled. Monotone. Advice given freely. Or withdrawing all help if I see it going through one ear and out the other. Discernment in conversation. Sticky notes. Attuned to see the bullshit in conversation. In life. Helpful suggestions. Take it or leave it. Mind feels like a hamster wheel. How do you turn this thing off?  An upward line of a tick, in red. Not an excuse, but know that the harder I am on you, the harder I am on myself really. 

Libra Mercury

Flirting. Feels as natural as breathing does. A sweet talker. The stem of cherry. A gentle lilt that comes alive in conversation. A fickle mind. Forever weighing up the pro’s and cons. Birdsong, cutting through morning dew. Wanting peace from my environment. Trying to maintain peace in my environment. A white flag fluttering in the wind, atop a hill. Indecision feels paralysing. Waiting for you to finish speaking before I provide an opposing point of view. Feigning innocence. Learning about myself through conversations with others. Sometimes not liking what I see. 3 sides to a story. I am capable of a decision, I just feel better when the internal scales of my thoughts are balanced. 

Scorpio Mercury

Power. Power plays in conversation. Checkmate. Words are comparable to pieces on a chessboard. Not a fan of small talk. Unless it’s for my benefit. Intuition on point. And then some. Probing. Trust issues. Talking to someone for a minute but deducing years of their life from a single meeting. Burner phones in a drawer. The eerie silence that comes around, say 4 AM. Secrets, mine and yours, help me fall asleep at night. Receipts for weeks, days and months. I’ve got it all. Past hurts cut deep in my psyche. Eyebrows pulled together. Pretending to be deaf when convenient. Subject changes. A full stop. Knowledge is power. I am capable of sharing intimate details of myself…..you first though. 

Sagittarius Mercury

YOLO. Sending those kinda texts to the wrong group chat by mistake. Saying what we were all thinking, even if it’s not the ‘right’ time, ‘cos fuck it. Slidin’ in the DM’s. Popping up like it’s nothing. You know me. Is time even real? The underside of a desk, covered with tags, love notes, and condom wrappers. Going off on social media. For a good cause, most of the time. Falling back on spirituality when life gets tough. Thought patterns are expansive and influenced by cultures and theories different than mine. Appreciating the differences in life. In people. Gift of the gab. That person who’s laughing when no one else is. Believing in abundance because that's what my environment reflects back to me. Stretching the fine line between truth and fantasy…….’cos fuck it.

Capricorn Mercury

Blue ticks. Time is of the essence. Thoughts are disciplined. A 3 tier desk organiser, stuffed to the brim with documents. Elocution lessons. Did you know I used to stutter? Deadpan jokes. A raised eyebrow. Judging people. We all do it, it’s innate to us. Keep your friends close. Enemies closer. Voicemail. I don’t need people to like me, but respect me is all I ask. A calculating mind. Always planning ahead. Sudoku puzzles. People give themselves away all the time, you just need to listen. Believing people’s actions over words. Thoughts focused on external recognition became a burden I often didn’t ask for, weighs me down.

Aquarius Mercury

Observant. Seeing the subtle layers that make up human behaviour. People are fascinating. A 360 way of looking at things. Reverb on an electric guitar. Solution-focused. A finger on the pulse of undiscovered knowledge. Static from a radio dial. I’m not afraid to question everything. An outdated statue, tipped. A love and hate relationship with time. Flashes of intuition. Needing time to process thoughts. A cool perspective. Shades of sunglasses, tinted yellow. Including people I’ve never met in my thoughts. In my dreams. My wishes. A Brave New World? I’m still waiting for people to step up and take responsibility.

Pisces Mercury

The red and white swirls of a helter-skelter ride. The path connecting my thoughts and my words is a little beaten. But not many people have bothered to venture this way. Pillow talk during the day. Drifting off in conversation. Overspilling in conversations. Or people, overspilling details of their life onto me. Missing appointments. Two circles merging into one if you stare long enough. Tapped into Source. Weaving you a dream with my words so good, I start to believe it. The afterword in a novel. Doodles in a margin. Sensitivity in conversation. Picking up a million and one signals from my environment. Using music to lose myself and ironically, find myself in the end.

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| little thoughts about venus placements

| little thoughts about the mars placements

| little thoughts about the saturn placements

[infinitesofnought]

Awareness of seeing is invisible. Awareness of hearing is silent. Awareness of touching is intangible. These three awarenesses are part of one indivisible personal awareness.

Personal awareness exists beyond both entropy and negentropy, it cannot seek itself or avoid itself by trying with direct personal effort.

To succeed in harmonizing mortal personal awareness with eternal transpersonal awareness, remain sensitive to sensitivity and aware of awareness, divesting from seeking or avoiding direct personal effort.

...Here I think that Taoism makes a decision to conflate the absence of subpersonal qualities of personal consciousness with an assumed absence of sensed qualities in sense itself. While I think this is false in an absolute or scientific sense, it is true enough locally that it is quite profound and leads to a useful philosophy for living our personal lives. This is the “Eastern Way” toward the attainment of a fully satisfied selfless self, in diametric opposition to the “Western Way” toward material attainment by a forever unsatisfied self that is selfishly ‘full of itself’.

Going back to the re-interpreted text, I think that the advice given is that to follow the Tao, aka seek ‘flow states’, one should, seemingly paradoxically, neither try nor avoid trying to take personal action. Perhaps it is the opposite of the Western sentiment attributed to Thomas Paine and George Patton “Lead, follow, or get out of the way.” The Eastern sentiment could be read as “Do not seek to lead or follow. Get out of the way.” The idea is to use personal motivation to integrate itself with transpersonal sense and motives rather than to assert its personal agenda onto the rest of the (interpersonal, subpersonal, impersonal, transpersonal) universe. ...MSR proposes that while it is true that our personal cocoon of insensitivity causes a disconnection with all other conscious experiences, this disappearance of consciousness is no enigmatic ‘non-existence’ or ‘suchness’ as Taoism suggests. MSR suggests that beyond the sensory cataract of personal experience is not a grand nothingness to which all sense returns, but one lone Holos or totality within which all experience is preserved forever in some sense (similar to the concept of the Akashic Records).

The Totality of experiences are eternally present and experience-able in an Absolute sense, but all component experiences are diffracted through complex nested modulations of relative insensitivity. This diffraction temporarily limits the totality of sense experience to a single timeline of experience that senses itself in terms that echo the very condition of that temporary limitation. Each diffracted partition of the Holos is a temporarily temporalized version of eternal experience into an episodic stream of memory-laden feelings and thoughts. This is the the binding of our subjective qualities of experience, including the sense of being a subject.

...In MSR, I critique physical entities like mass and energy as reductionist quantitative abstractions that accidentally deny the underlying universal fabric of qualitative sense affect and motive effect. Primordial sensory affect and motive effect replace mass and energy as the local modes of participation. The physical universe of anesthetic-mechanical appearances is understood to be a kind of shadow of the Aesthetic Holos that reflects the ability of consciousness to partially divide and alienate itself for purposes of multiplying and enriching itself. The physical world is not an illusion, simulation or maya, it is just that reality in the local sense is an inverted reflection of reality in the absolute sense.

...Everything from social media to the Metaverse to AGI is expanding our connection to disconnection. I think that because of that grounding in disconnection, all of these projects are ultimately doomed to failure in the ways that truly matter to us, despite promising exponential success in the ways that Western-Materialist model and its virally expanding institutions have conditioned us to think that we should want. We dreamed of extraterrestrial conquest, and instead we are conquering ourselves with anti-terrestrial nauseas. We have mistaken the uncanny for the sublime.

...Taking this back to the Tao Te Ching, I propose that Lao Tzu’s error is only an error in the absolute sense, not in a personal sense. While we are alive, the transpersonal conscious experience that envelopes our personal conscious experience is silent, invisible and intangible. We can only get glimpses of it when we’re not looking and our envelope of limited personal awareness is slightly breached such as noticing synchronicity or completely opened up in a life altering event. When those larger breaches occur and the personal intellect is flooded with its version of transpersonal awareness, some contents are necessarily distorted and omitted. Personal awareness correctly identifies its contact with transpersonal awareness as more significant than ordinary experience but without any means to ground it in its ordinary sense-making terms. Hence, to the outside observer, the psychedelic or mystical experience is seen charitably as visionary or uncharitably as psychotic.

To temper that extreme, chaotic end of the spectrum of consciousness, MSR should be seen as only an outer framework of philosophy to point toward the possibility of a new synthesis between the systemizing and empathizing modes of awareness. That possibility would be fulfilled when people free themselves from pathological extremes and find common sense closer to the terrestrial center of our universe and the fully individual and human center of ourselves.

– Craig Weinberg (x)

I agree with most of this post and suggest reading it in its entirety, but I don't think that the concepts of "nothingness" and "suchness" are really where the error is located. I think the error is a disavowal of "everythingness" - but it goes the other way as well. Going beyond either duality or non-duality means recognizing that "nothingness" and "everythingness" are really the same.

What is "suchness"?

Difficult to describe in words - but the "suchness" of, say, a flower means its unknowable essence, which includes the fact that it points to, and implies, everything that exists beyond or outside of it (the Totality). It is merely an expression of everything that came before it, as well as the ultimate principles that determine how things evolve.

(And yet it is what it is as well - this flower, here - nothing other than that.)

"They say each thing conceals some hidden thing. Yes, it is the thing itself, this unhidden thing, That lies concealed within." (Fernando Pessoa)

And yet. All of these principles and how they evolve, all of this totality, is nothing other than what it is. None of it actually "means" anything other than: this is how things are, in this universe. There's no, say, universal signifier that says that this is the way things have to be. It just...happened this way. This implies that the opposite could be true. Every affirmation contains within it its negation, and vice-versa.

(Again, difficult to describe in words, because there's in sense in which it had to be this way, couldn't have been any other way.)

Not only that, but when we refer to Totality we have to take into account how things could evolve in the future. In other words, what we have is not an inert record, but a record that pulses with potentiality.

That potentiality, which exists...before or behind everything, is the sense beyond sense. It is the taught string of the lyre. The Totality is every way the string has moved in the past, and every way it will move in the future. But what of the silence to which the string returns when its vibration dies down?